Its Real Quite in J~Land

Hi                                                     

Hope everyone is ok in J~Land, your all very quiet out there at the moment! It must be that time of Year, Everyone must be preparing theirselves for the christmas RUSH. And of course all the colds are about now too, We have had a right run of the colds, Georgie has just got over his one, Samuel Too, and now my son Michael has one and Samuel is ill again too with his Asthma! He is on Antibiotics and Steriods (hence very hyperactive at the moment) Bless him. And then theres ME i have a right rotten cold,sore throat and cough i think its a chest infection starting . YOU KNOW US WOMEN THOUGH WE PULL THROUGH ANYTHING!!!LOL especially when there are little ones in our Family.

Anyway i went for my 6 week check and my councelling is on the 28th november as i sigh HUH, i not really the type of person that wants to do this But i will try! Other than that im fine have been given lots of excercises to do~because i have a tear in my stomach muscles and i have to strengthen them again. This however will take some time again but i will do them. I cant be doing with a Saggy belly LOL not yet anyway!!!!

                              

Yesterday i went back to kings College Hospital and Saw Professor Kipros Nicholades, My brother Pete came with me and he drove us ! He has been so supportive to me (THANKYOU~PETE)

                               

Well i was Greeted as nice as they could, they tried to get me to sit in a room away from all the other Pregnant Ladies , of which i refused because it seemed silly to hide away because of my own feelings! And also i had Samuel with me and he was playing quite happy under the circumstances with being on his Steriods!

                                        

So i see the professor! He is a very nice Man However very blunt and to the point, while i was pregnant i found this quite hard to except the way he dealt with the situation! But once we started talking and he asked how i was it broke the ice!

                                

We talked for sometime about Laila's Condition and that there was nothing that could be done to save her!(bless her) But he did say that my tests that i had done for Mytonic Dystrophy (which came back negative) and the other one which still is not back (my results) did not matter anycase, as these tests that were taken Were unnessercary as it would not be linked to Lailas Condition!    

                                    

                                  

But my Good News was that i could try again for another Baby if i so wished, however i feel a bit guilty! as i will never have my little girl! And another Baby will never ever take her place!!!!! but i would if get pregnant go straight back to kings Hospital and be scanned personally by the professor at 12 weeks. If there were anything that showed up the same as when i was pregnant with Laila, they would offer me the TABLET that ends the pregnancy earlier!

                                        

So my out come was good but however like i said i do feel very guilty to Laila wanting to try again, and of course if the worse came to the worse i know i would feel guilty if i had to take the tablet! But my child bearing days are not over Yet!!!!! So lets see, what will be will be ! All i wish is that if and when whether another girl which would be a real Godsend if Healthy another boy and Healthy too. i would just be lucky to get a healthy baby at the end!!! And that is all that matters!!!

                                   

Well i have kept promising you all my other poems and have decided that Michael my 6 yr old one i will place on this journal as he has really took it to heart about his sister! However it is short and i did help him with the words and the picture above it is what he has chosen, so i hope you all like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                             

                                

                                I am so upset,

                                you had to go

                                My wish for a

                                       sister

                                 Just can not

                                       be so.

                                                   For the Angels 

                                                     Came to take

                                                      You Above 

                                to make you

                                     Happy

                                       and

                                   give you 

                                       lots

                                    of love

                                  So now all

                                  i can do is

                                   send you

                                   plenty of

                                  prayers up

                                    Above.

                                     Love

                                      your  

                                   Brother                    

                                   Michael

                                   xxxxxxx

                                       xxx

                             

                                

Well that is all for now this evenning all you J~Landers Sleep well and hope you have a great Day .

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p.s sorry a.o.l. is playing me up with entry!!!! blasted aol. urggggghh xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx