Another day towards christmas

Hi all x

Well i thought i should change my background and get into the christmas spirit !!! So i put a few christmassy things on my side bar !

Thanks to you mandy for the mikes gifts (i went and scrolled through and grabbed a few and then a few more .lol (oh my will she curse me) But anyway Thankyou to mikesfreegifs they helped me to get into the spirit a bit more on here....

I would like to thank all of you that Welcomed back for your comments it is really kind of you all. You are all so very nice people who dont find it difficult to let me know that you care (that is real sweet of you so hugs to you all)x

Well today i told you i was taking my son Georgie to London as he had an appointment at the hospital (this is to do with his leg and his arm) As he has Rightsided Hemeplegia i think i told you all before that when georgie was 23months old he had a Stroke and has since learnt to adjust and cope with his abilities of doing things different from other children the same age especially with his learning difficulties ! Any how georgies consultant was very pleased with him  and he has to go back after christmas for some adjustments to the splint and then another follow up in March (hey im glad for the break ) I have only been driving since November 2004 and i threw myself into the deep end with doing the Hospital Runs as these are quite far from where i live (this was my reasons for really pushing myself to learn to drive so that i could be there for georgie and all his appointments instead of relying on my Hubby and of course so i could run my other children about too. And i did it with an accident on my last driving lesson ( which was not my fault may i say ) this was 3 days before my test and when the day came i went to the test centre with my side wing and door taped !!! I never thought for a minute they would pass me  especially with me car in such a state lol!

Anyway im absolutely Shattered today now i have been on the go all day . And guess what? do you remember me saying that i hoped to get decorated for christmas  WELL WE HAVE MADE A START YIPPEE on the quiet im thrilled to bits and my hubby has helped me such alot with getting it going BLESS HIM !!!  He keeps telling me ill mess up if i paint and that my place is to be in the kitchen behind the stove and to leave him to the mens work LOL WELL I WAS NOT HAVING IT  so he had to tolerate me having a go at the painting and scrapping off the old paper  LOL !!! SEE LIKE I KEEP TELLING HIM WE WOMEN ARE MULTI TALENTED AND CAN DO MORE THAN ONE THING AT A TIME ....not like the other gender one thing at a time for them !!!lol

Well tomorrow is a day for my youngest samuel to go to playschool so i can paint my main wall! and we are having RASPBERRY  all over it !!! my other colour is Eygptian sand on the other 2 walls (i thought this colour would be like Magnolia but now it is on the wall its like an old fashion light gold ....DIFFERENT.... but i think it will look lovely when its finnished so i have to get cracking cause im hoping it will be done by the end of this week PLEASE GOD  i need to put up a christmas tree yet and finnish the boys shopping for their pressies too!   so i must get some sleep and get cracking!!!!

Well once again thankyou for stopping by

speak again soon x kerryanne x 

BACK TO ME WRITTING AGAIN

Hi to everyone in J~Land.....

This is a quick entry as i made a deal with my niece Hayley that i would show an appearance. However this is hard as i havent been here for 4 weeks and its hard to come back .

I found it hard writting on here for a while but i had beareavement councelling and the lady told me to write, this was a couple of weeks ago and ive still found it hard as im not sure what to say to everyone. And also how i feel too. extremely strained and very very numb and how do i explain myself like this, Maybe like a Jigsaw very puzzled about everything to do with laila.................... Even visiting her grave i found hard and did not go for 2 weeks but i have been this week twice ! I left her a christmas Cross but still im numb.

Anyway dont want to bore you all ....

So here you are Hayley ive made an appearance and now i must go lol...... Bedtime and an early rise for the hospital run to london for my son Georgie !!!

 

So speak again soon hugs to all ....

Kerryanne xxxxxxxxx

Its Real Quite in J~Land

Hi                                                     

Hope everyone is ok in J~Land, your all very quiet out there at the moment! It must be that time of Year, Everyone must be preparing theirselves for the christmas RUSH. And of course all the colds are about now too, We have had a right run of the colds, Georgie has just got over his one, Samuel Too, and now my son Michael has one and Samuel is ill again too with his Asthma! He is on Antibiotics and Steriods (hence very hyperactive at the moment) Bless him. And then theres ME i have a right rotten cold,sore throat and cough i think its a chest infection starting . YOU KNOW US WOMEN THOUGH WE PULL THROUGH ANYTHING!!!LOL especially when there are little ones in our Family.

Anyway i went for my 6 week check and my councelling is on the 28th november as i sigh HUH, i not really the type of person that wants to do this But i will try! Other than that im fine have been given lots of excercises to do~because i have a tear in my stomach muscles and i have to strengthen them again. This however will take some time again but i will do them. I cant be doing with a Saggy belly LOL not yet anyway!!!!

                              

Yesterday i went back to kings College Hospital and Saw Professor Kipros Nicholades, My brother Pete came with me and he drove us ! He has been so supportive to me (THANKYOU~PETE)

                               

Well i was Greeted as nice as they could, they tried to get me to sit in a room away from all the other Pregnant Ladies , of which i refused because it seemed silly to hide away because of my own feelings! And also i had Samuel with me and he was playing quite happy under the circumstances with being on his Steriods!

                                        

So i see the professor! He is a very nice Man However very blunt and to the point, while i was pregnant i found this quite hard to except the way he dealt with the situation! But once we started talking and he asked how i was it broke the ice!

                                

We talked for sometime about Laila's Condition and that there was nothing that could be done to save her!(bless her) But he did say that my tests that i had done for Mytonic Dystrophy (which came back negative) and the other one which still is not back (my results) did not matter anycase, as these tests that were taken Were unnessercary as it would not be linked to Lailas Condition!    

                                    

                                  

But my Good News was that i could try again for another Baby if i so wished, however i feel a bit guilty! as i will never have my little girl! And another Baby will never ever take her place!!!!! but i would if get pregnant go straight back to kings Hospital and be scanned personally by the professor at 12 weeks. If there were anything that showed up the same as when i was pregnant with Laila, they would offer me the TABLET that ends the pregnancy earlier!

                                        

So my out come was good but however like i said i do feel very guilty to Laila wanting to try again, and of course if the worse came to the worse i know i would feel guilty if i had to take the tablet! But my child bearing days are not over Yet!!!!! So lets see, what will be will be ! All i wish is that if and when whether another girl which would be a real Godsend if Healthy another boy and Healthy too. i would just be lucky to get a healthy baby at the end!!! And that is all that matters!!!

                                   

Well i have kept promising you all my other poems and have decided that Michael my 6 yr old one i will place on this journal as he has really took it to heart about his sister! However it is short and i did help him with the words and the picture above it is what he has chosen, so i hope you all like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                             

                                

                                I am so upset,

                                you had to go

                                My wish for a

                                       sister

                                 Just can not

                                       be so.

                                                   For the Angels 

                                                     Came to take

                                                      You Above 

                                to make you

                                     Happy

                                       and

                                   give you 

                                       lots

                                    of love

                                  So now all

                                  i can do is

                                   send you

                                   plenty of

                                  prayers up

                                    Above.

                                     Love

                                      your  

                                   Brother                    

                                   Michael

                                   xxxxxxx

                                       xxx

                             

                                

Well that is all for now this evenning all you J~Landers Sleep well and hope you have a great Day .

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

                               

                                 

p.s sorry a.o.l. is playing me up with entry!!!! blasted aol. urggggghh xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

THE END OF MY SUNDAY EVENNING

GOOD EVENNING TO ALL YOU J~LANDERS!!!

                               

Well i got through Friday (georgies birthday) it was a long day!

Once i got the boys off to school i headed off for my chaotic day!

                             

First on the Agenda was pins, we got them from a camping shop, as i needed them for Laila's daisy chain. Then we stopped at a Florist and i bought a bouquet of flowers to go on Lailas Grave and then we went to the Grave!

It was Freezing Cold and really windy!!! But hey i wasnt stopping till i'd finnished what needed to be done. So my Husband mick placed the cross and Tapped it in the ground for me!   Then we placed the daisy chains round and i pinned them into the ground! My Hubby mick went on search for some water for the flowers, while i finnished tidying up and then in went the flowers and i was done my mission was complete. Very Hard for us both to be there together cause as strange as it was we just did what we had to do .. we were like Auto pilots. My hubby shed some tears as we left but i could not i feel so, so numb i didnt even know what to say to him to comfort him, this sounds so harsh but its like ive buried my emotions behind a wall and there not coming out for no~one not even me!!!

                               

Well from there it was time to go straight home as the boys were coming out of school shortly, once home my Friend came around Lorraine and brought Georgie some balloons round and a Birthday card!

Then Dean my eldest turned up and we headed to the school to pick up the two horrors!!lol.

We celebrated Georgies Birthday at bowling, We all went including my mum and pete and his friend Katy and then our other friends Heather and Paul.

The boys had a great time including samuel as he found it was great to ride about on georgies Skateboard that heather and paul got him, this was real funny we were all in uproar!lol

Then Saturday was housework day!!!Yuk!!! i did loads of washing and ironning! And then the evenning i went out to watch a Band they are called Eagles Dare! My eldest son dean is going out with a girl called Sharn they are Great together have a lot in common! Anyway Lorraine my friend is sharns Mum and she is married to Glenn and it was his band that we went to watch! The Pub however was very old and some of the people seemed a bit iffy.lol but it was a good evenning! i enjoyed the break away from home. I stayed sobar too as i was driving !!!lol!!!

Sunday . I did lots of more Housework (boring) battled the boys with homework and Baths, the day was a strain with my 6 year old as he was testing my patience no end .

My hubby went and collected our new car (Sangyong Musso ) it is second hand of course but its in real nice condition from what ive seen of it in the dark(lol) this evenning!

Then it was more ironning ! Then i came on here and all my Favorite stuff that i have on the toolbar had dissapeared ( i was not pleased in the slightest, but i have sorted it all out) atleast i can do that without mucking it up or changing the size lol. this was simple stuff for my brain lol .

Also i have started making Cards i made some for mandy for her birthday! im sure she will show you all and then i made some for georgie for his 11th birthday! Also i made another one for my friends grandaughter as it was her birthday the same day as georgie . here is the pic of it! i was real pleased with myself .... so i shall have a go at making some more and then the place where i got Lailas flowers for the funeral, the Lady Gill is going to allow me to take my cards to her shop and she will see if they sell. so we can only see!

Anyway im going to go as i have another busy day tomorrow, im taking my hubby to the hospital for he has an eye appointment to go to  and he is not to drive. awe what a shame ill have to drive him lol.

And then when i get back from that i will be going to my doctors as i have my 6 weeks post natel check im not looking forward to that one but ill still go!!! A must is a must so be it!!!!

                                       

Well goodnight all

Speak soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxkerryannexxxxxxxxxxxxxx

JUST A FEW LINES BEFORE I GO TO BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hi everyone,     

Thanks for the comments on our halloween!!!

                    

Everything has been the usual chaos in my house for the last 2 weeks, New things have been arising, and im now finding things a bit hard but i suppose things will be this way for a while.

My youngest was poorly last week with high tempreture and sickness and a rash, but he is now well and will be back to playschool.

My other two have been so so poorly, georgie has had the high tempreture and headaches yesterday and the day before and Michael well he was feeling a bit left out i think, but has been having trouble with his hearing for some time and this has now arisen again. So tonight we went to the doctors and he has been given more ear drops and will be going to have his ears syringed YUK i do hope that it is not painfull for him as i remember mine were!!!!

Oh and last night we had a power cut for about half an hour THE BOYS   thought it was great no lights but candles and the curtains open with our cars HEADLIGHTS on LOL!!!

Luckily it wasnt for too long as i had just been shopping and filled me freezer . Also we have gekos LIZARDS in a heated tank and their heat was off too, but they are fine !

Well hopefully the kids will be back to school and playschool and then i can go and do some shopping for Georgies birthday !!!! PLEASE KIDS!!!

Georgie will be 11 years on Friday to the day 1.46am he was born in the morning. Funny ole girl i am i always remember the time they were born (must be the maternal instint in me lol) .  Well anyway tonight i have been making his birthday cards from us and his brothers!! (hope he likes them)

Tommorow will be shopping for his presents and cake etc... Dont have time for cake making those years are done with now as i buy it .

                       

Also i have had a Friend of our make Laila a Wooden cross for her grave it is Lovely so hopefully i will be able to pick this up tomorrow too.... And then ill place all her daisy chain round her grave too and start to decorate it (I cant wait ) i havent been to the grave for about 12 days now and it is starting to put a bit of strain on me as i feel the crushing in my chest again so maybe its where im anxious to go back again.

I will be be putting my poem on here soon and maybe one of her pictures !

Also my 6 year olds poem that he wrote for her, bless him !!!!

 

Well goodnight for now and ill speak to you all soon .

im off to iron and get myself to bed!!!!

KERRYANNE

THANKS TO CHRIS FROM

CABS CREATIONS ITS A BEAUTIFUL PICTURE

TO EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL XXX.

Im Back with My Halloween Entry

 WELL HERE IT IS! our HALLOWEEN NIGHT!!!

The night before i dressed up the Living Room,so all the Boys would be excited in the Morning! We had planned to dress up and go TRICK~TREATING~ and they were real EXCITED . this was what was hanging from our Door!

Here is our Fire~place decoratedthis is the top

and down the side. Sorry the pictures could be better if i knew how to turn them round but hey there still good.lol so the kids say anyway!

The boys had a lovely halloween Tea, but i did not take a pic, of this (cause i forgot) also Never got pic of the 2 elder boys cause once they were finnish they put their jammas on before i got a chance to snap some pics!  Anyway here is their Treat after their Dinner. SKULL & EYE BALLS DESERT!!! this was Jelly with one side topped with Custard  and skull sweets and the other side topped with Angel delight and chocolate eyeball sweets! The boys were happy with it and so were their Friends that came to join them !

We then got ready for some Trick~Treating, Samuel the youngest thought it was great knocking on peoples doors and saying trick or treat "SWEETS"  this was funny bless him as it was the 1st year that he came with us that he understood. My Friend and i walked the children round our neighbour hood for 2 hours it was freezing i had Ear ache from the cold by then and called it a day!

We came home with their pots and emptied all the sweets and shared them all out equally, by the time all this was done the boys were late going to bed as they had school the next day! Below is pic of Samuel Dressed as a skeleton,

                         

So they day was an Enjoyment for the boys and for me seeing them so happy and full of excitement!!! They all looked good how they had dressed up Michael was like a Dracula and George was like a Sporty dracula!!! if you can imagine what that looks like.lol

I hope you all had a .

and i would like to say thankyou for the lovely tags !!! i have had trouble remebering who i got them from i think it was missie and if im wrong ill correct my error!!!

WELL GOOD NIGHT ALL FOR NOW BE BACK SOON WITH MORE!!!!!

      IM SURE MISSIE DONE THIS ONE TOO BUT IM CHECKING INCASE I MADE A MISTAKE!!!!              

WHAT A WEEKEND OF HECTIC CHAOS

HELLO                          

to all in J~Land!!!!

                             

Well my weekend has been a complete and utter rush rush everywhere and the house work is building up ! and i wanted to do all my halloween Entry but Mandy has become the entry this time!

                  

          Its the 5th of November

                  FIRE~WORKS

            NIGHT     

BUT hey its my sisters Birthday too!

                 SHE IS 40 YRS

                     

                       TODAY

when she reads all this on my journal

she will want to slap my wrist, but hey mandy your only 40 once so enjoy it, your supposed to start your life at 40 so get going GIRL !!!

                      

SO ANY WAY I WISH YOU A VERY VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TODAY!

I would also like to thank Lynne for all the tags and the beautiful poem that she had done for Mandy and also please say thankyou to kath!!!! For all her time with the getting the tags (especially while she was busy)xxxxxxx

                     

Well Mandy! here is your poem and also my happy Birthdays to you!xxxxxxxx MY BIG SISTERxxxxx

"HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY"

 

 

 

 

IT'S SOMEONES 4OTH IN J/LAND TODAY.

I HEARD FROM A DICKY BIRD WHO FLEW BY MY WAY.

I WANT HER TO KNOW  I THOUGHT IT A SHAME.

IF SHE MISSED OUR WISHES SO HERE IS HER NAME.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" DEAR MILLIE HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY.

I'VE SENT ROUND THE  WAITER WITH YOUR CAKE ON A  TRAY.

 

A NICE BOTTLE OF WINE I'M SENDING YOU TOO.

YES IT'S ME WHO'S ANNOUNED IT tillywooat62.

I SENT OUT AN E. MAIL TO MY J/LAND FRIEND.

AND ASKED IF SHE'D WRITE ME THIS RHYME HERE TO SEND,

HER NAME IT IS KATH AND SHE KINDLY AGREED.

SHE WAS BUSY BUT ALWAYS HELPS PEOPLE IN NEED.

WELL MILLY MOLLY MANDY I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND.

KATHS PUT IN YOUR PICTURE I THINK THATS SO KIND.

I'LL BE THINKING OF YOU AND HOPE THAT YOU GET.

EVERYTHING YOU WISH FOR YOUR BEST BIRTHDAY YET.

IV'E ALSO SENT CHOCOLATES PERSONALISED FOR YOU.

 I COULDN'T GET HOLD OF A TICKET FOR THE ZOO.

WE KNOW YOU LOVE ANIMALS AND MUSIC AS WELL.

THE DICKY BIRD CAME BACK AND THIS HE DID TELL.

MUSIC'S ANOTHER LOVE OF YOURS I DID HEAR.

 

SO HERES SOME GET DANCING MILLIE MY DEAR.

KNEES UP BE HAPPY AND ALL OF THE  REST.

I'M NOW ASKING  J/LAND TO WISH YOU THE BEST.

GET OUT THE WINE AND CHOCS HAVE A BALL.

AS THE DICKY BIRDS FLYING ROUND NOW TO TELL ONE AND ALL.

THAT TODAY YOU ARE 40 AND I HOPE YOU GET MANY.

WISHES FROM J/LAND INSTEAD OF NOT ANY.

KATH SAYS'"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" TOO IN THIS RHYME.

AND I'VE ALREADY THANKED HER FOR TAKING THE TIME.

"HAPPY 40TH" " HAPPY 40TH"

HAVE A GREAT DAY.

PLEASE J/LAND FRIENDS WILL YOU POP MILLIES WAY.

TO SEND HER YOUR WISHES AS SOON AS YOU CAN.

IT WILL MAKE HER REAL HAPPY SO POSITIVE I AM.

SHE'LL END UP WITH A BIG SMILE ON HER PRETTY FACE.

PLEASE GO TO Millie's Messings A WISH THERE TO PLACE.

OR IF YOU PREFER YOU CAN PUT WISHES HERE.

 

ESPECIALLY FOR MILLIE FOR HER 40TH YEAR.

BEFORE THE RHYME ENDS I MUST TAKE MY STAND.

AND SAY ONCE AGAIN THANKS ASTORIASAND.

 

 

          

HIP HIP HOORAY! MILLIES 40 TODAY                          

Well Mandy i hope you have had a lovely Day today!

And to all of those in j~land, thanks for still coming along to my journal, and tomorrow i intend on being back with THE HALLOWEEN ENTRY WITH PICTURES TOO! sorry if i seem to of gone into hiding but like i said hard week and hectic weekend. And my little boy Samuel has been poorly since Wednesday, so its been a bit difficult, he is still poorly with a rash im not sure if its Measles but if he is still poorly by tomorrow then were off to the DOCTORS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Other than his rash he is pretty ok in his self NOW running me RAGGED!LOL.

lots of hugs

KERRYANNE XXXXXXXXX