tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-77663572709710751652024-03-13T01:22:38.095-07:00Kerry's Chaos!kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.comBlogger28125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-62092974322102040222008-10-30T16:24:00.000-07:002008-10-31T15:52:25.690-07:00BEING NAGGED!!!!<span style="font-size:130%;"><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;"><span style="font-size:180%;">welcome all to my new blog!!!!</span> </span></strong></span><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-hPkoaiLsi2VKkTTQPCxmaWZksbJGFBdov_XJpQaDH-cG3Ey4OLd_45bBwEJ9CglQyRuwfT26ILM0AwuHglG3wMkyzZ-5ZwEn7v75lljE7z9AXu0BHJckRz0PtPHoyStVClrmG1kGu0k/s1600-h/maldon..prom+035.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5263451513180938530" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-hPkoaiLsi2VKkTTQPCxmaWZksbJGFBdov_XJpQaDH-cG3Ey4OLd_45bBwEJ9CglQyRuwfT26ILM0AwuHglG3wMkyzZ-5ZwEn7v75lljE7z9AXu0BHJckRz0PtPHoyStVClrmG1kGu0k/s320/maldon..prom+035.JPG" border="0" /></a></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">I have popped by today as my neice Hayley (Bless her) Has reminded that im a bit slow on the uptake in updating my blog as its been nearly 2 WHOLE months that i have written anything!</span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">So here goes ..... im writting ..... lol Hayley ...She is amusing herself at the moment with my camera admiring herself!!!! I do hope that i will not be getting my photo done at this hour of the night! AS I REALLY DO LOOK AT MESS and in my case that is not hard!!!</span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">So my update !! Well For all of you that know me i had a Beautiful Daughter in May this year ...Her name is Rochelle and she is exactly 24 weeks tomorrow and on Sunday just gone she was christened. </span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">It was a Dull day of which thankfully it did not rain . All of my family came and many friends to celebrate with us.... Rochelle had 6 Godparents of Which was my niece Hayley which she says SHE IS THE BEST LOL of course there is no denying it she says as she grins ...and of course i know hayley will always look out for rochelle ... Sorry i have to tell what she has just said " Hence when the time comes when i pop me cloggs she is to get first dibbs on rochelle .... Good job i take all this in jest Bless her cottons.... </span></strong><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;"></span></strong><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrT-GKNlKrSI-dAnMz-K7_FdRbks-pz4cBfYcQr8kKxek4bpxK35Y740D5b-nUlQguN9lCTFuKu7w3DfxGKX2noFhCSwy7O29PayyOpAEQ-GJ-GPz9T8xpi1wTlx5zbxtgNmwC8TTZ3-0/s1600-h/rochelles+christening+26-10-08+039.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5263452493185361378" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrT-GKNlKrSI-dAnMz-K7_FdRbks-pz4cBfYcQr8kKxek4bpxK35Y740D5b-nUlQguN9lCTFuKu7w3DfxGKX2noFhCSwy7O29PayyOpAEQ-GJ-GPz9T8xpi1wTlx5zbxtgNmwC8TTZ3-0/s320/rochelles+christening+26-10-08+039.JPG" border="0" /></a> <strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">Anyway Back to the christening... It was lovely i was so proud of my little girl, she didnt even cry when they blessed her with the water!!!! She was the star of the day ! All of her brothers were there with her too and im sure that her brother michael was the one that was very very proud of her ! Bless him he loves her to pieces.... We took lots and lots of photos and then afterwards family and friends celebrated with us at our local public house.... did'nt like to say pub cause that sounded so COMMEN.LOL. </span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">All Rochelles godparents are lovely people and i know that one day if anything ever did happen to me or rochelles dad she would be in safe hands!!</span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">Anyway moving on DURING THE WAR!!! NO ONLY JOKING!!! </span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">Yesterday i went to visit my sister Mandy in her new home in maldon, its a lovely home, suits her to a T, mandy does like the country life and her home tells you that... what with all her card making stuff she does too, she is a natural oh and not forgetting her garden .... Only she could have a fresh blooming clematis growing away quite happily in this freezing cold weather, it was Beautiful. To End our day we took the kids to the promenade, we were blooming freezing but we had such a laugh, hayley did her usual photographs 80 of them to be percise, the view of the boats and the day drawing in for the evening to start was such a pleasant view, the kids had fun , so we had a lovely day and thankyou Mandy! Oh and not forgetting Terry poor sod i locked him out so he couldnt get in till we got back from the promenade..... bless him he didnt mind or he didnt let on he did anyway ... So Timothy please except my appologie......SORRY. </span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">Well this is where i end for this evenning i hope you enjoy stopping by my blog! please feel free to comment and leave me your addys for your journals so i can drop by and say hello....</span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">Goodnight to all ..... i will leave a few pics now for you all to see how much rochelle has grown , and many other pics of my last few days !!!!!</span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">Oh and Not forgetting Happy halloween to all..... </span></strong><br /><br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5263452938966794706" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIUXPdIgkQX5jvtjzeQ9ipOxyf8edLDvEGbF0j6guWDYE3DMne3l7xo-MFutY2DDZFuFnhpgnmiycGyJTGxIArzusDu1keRWEIj978_sdGyappOrzV0vEfH0UH1XRYtxqXToI3tvm260s/s320/rochelles+christening+26-10-08+030.JPG" border="0" /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">NIGHT night!!!!!</span></strong><br /><br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#6666cc;">kerryanne xx</span></strong>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-18475858079952402772008-09-01T15:25:00.000-07:002008-10-21T17:11:28.535-07:00My New Addition<p><img src="http://links.pictures.aol.com/pic?id=e180EZyFIEcmViYLARkjOlIxYwxp0C5qKVEBv4xQp5Fd3Ig=&size=m" /></p><p> </p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);font-size:7;" >Hi Everyone in J~Land....</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);font-size:7;" >Im so sorry that i havent been here for such a long time!!! But i am no longer with aol, and being a dipstick i didnt think i would be able to edit any more on my journal...Until tonight when my niece hayley told me i could, She said i was a dim~witt.lol. Hands up i said i have to agree with you!</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);font-size:7;" >Anyway i just wanted to let everyone know that on the 16th of May i had a Cesearean Section, this was arranged previously as i could not bare the thought of anything going wrong with the baby! So my little girl was delivered around lunchtime weighing 6lb.8oz . she was beautiful it was a very tearful moment for me especially when she cryed as they lifted her out, it was tears of happiness knowing she was delivered safely and was fine!!! My niece and i are laughing now as i was just trying to work out how long it took before i gave her a name! LOL i searched books and internet and had friends and family helping with unusual names , everyday for 3 weeks i gave her a different name starting from tia ,allyssa,alice,roseanne,hallie,</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);font-size:7;" >finally the day came when i had to name her and at the registras office i was still unsure, in the end it was between roxanne and rochelle, the registra liked the name rochelle and as it had a meaning of rock, i went along with it, her middle names my sons chose which are Sherianne Mae, its a bit of a mouthfull for her rochelle sherianne mae but at least she wont have to use them all... she will kill me when she is older especially when i tell her i even thought of changing her first name again to alice... but any how i cant do that as she is getting to know her name..and because she is my rock it will stay. hence hayley my niece keeps telling me she wont even notice she is like a puppy they have so many names they dont take any notice..lol thanks hayley .</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);font-size:7;" >so that is my news that i wanted to share with you all hope you like the photo above this is of rochelle today at 15 weeks old and here is a picture of her when she was born ....she is a beautiful baby cause she is mine and because she is hayleys cousin.lol(these are hayleys words) she is a bigger version of her sister laila so i am very lucky to now have the little girl i always wanted and to have my precious little angel in the sky that rochelle will keep her memories very alive.... i am a very very lucky mum to have all my children and my newest addition Rochelle.....xxxxx</span></p><p><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoX5tovZ35as466nDTn8GB6cmFMrTwYMoTnYf2Giqf1NLi75QnMWhGnhucNMPWh9F1yY01TAJz2oJkLk19ZeZHkl6ljN128nky77MoIGbn6rnV_LJmNISZRn-udaHM2Iyic1Ova0gEF_4/s1600-r/pic%3Fid=e180EZyFIEcmViYLARkjOlIxY3autV6JNo73v4xQp5Fd3Ig=&size=m" /></p><p>this was rochelle given straight to me once weighed and wrapped up!!!!</p><p>Well that is my news !!! I hope and wish all of you are well and i look forward to being able to come back here, now i know i am no longer a dim witt and can pop by once in a while.lol...</p><p>Bye for now kerryanne xxxx</p><div id="metrics" style="display: none;" contenteditable="false"><a href="http://technorati.com/tag/aoljpictureUpload" target="_blank" rel="tag">aoljpictureUpload</a>, <a href="http://technorati.com/tag/aoljpictureUpload_2" target="_blank" rel="tag">aoljpictureUpload_2</a></div>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com17tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-41243186424964248492008-02-01T11:41:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.358-07:00The world of J~ Land Hello to all x<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>Hi everyone, </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>Here i am again just popping by while i stand a chance!lol Its quiet here in my home at the moment so ive Sneaked on here.lol..... The boys are watching television and the hubby is sleeping ~ So slap my wrist i grabbed the chance so here i am..........</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>Well as you are probably all wondering what happened with my scan and what is the baby Boy or Girl? Well here is the update!!!! All my children came to the scan aswell as my hubby , everything seems to be as it should be with measurements and everything that they check for! Which i was relieved about, then all my family came into see the baby on the screen, it was sweet to see their faces of amazement! Samuel my 4 yr old said WOW its your baby he had such delight in his face, While Michael my 7 year old was more interested in what the baby was so i allowed him to ask~ we had all had a bet at home before hand and if it was a boy (which i thought) it would cost them £5.00 other wise i would paying them if they were wrong! To such shock the midwife said that it was a girl~ i was silent i could not believe it, samuel shouted oh no, while George was just taking everything in his stride and then hubby was like TOLD U SO !</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>Well from there i bought pics of the scan and then we headed back to the car ..... I was so shocked and pleased that my eyes must of seemed to others that i had been crying, and to a point i was with happiness , How unbelievable i finally had done it! it had taken me years lol to get the little girl i had always wanted~ But at the same time i was sad for my little girl that i did have Laila April, she was so tender and sweet and tiny and a perfect little face, if only she were here with me and my family to share this and of course have a sister with her! (that is hard to compute sometimes ) but the weeks have gone on and im started to enjoy more knowing that im nearer and nearer to meeting my second daughter and i cant wait.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>And if by any chance the midwife got it wrong and its a boy well all i can say is that if a he then he will be the prettiest boy in essex in PINK. LOL I better had start buying some nuteral colours lol.... and of course have a couple of boy names in the background too.lol </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>But if all is well and is definitely a girl then i feel very privaliged and grateful to be her mum~ if a boy then i will still be a lucky mum to a five a side football team and i will love it just the same....</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>Other than that im tired and humungously huge~ and i have still till may~ Blimmey i dont think ill be able to walk by then lol.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>As and when i sort out my new phone i will add the scan photo for all to see, until then hope all is well with everyone in j~land.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>Hugs to allxxxxx</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face=Verdana color=#cc33cc size=5>kerryanne</FONT></EM></STRONG> </P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-45772583308515654602007-12-30T11:53:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.359-07:00Wishing everyone a happy new year 2008<P><FONT size=5>Hi <FONT color=#ff9900>Everyone in Jay Land, Hope all is well and that you all had a lovely christmas!!!!!!!!</FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#ff9900 size=5>I wanted to pop by and wish you all a Happy new year for 2008.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#ff9900 size=5>I havent been here for sometime (what with being a busy mum and chores) i dont always get to go on the pc for long as we all share the computer in our house, of which can be CHAOS.lol</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#ff9900 size=5>Well i do have some news of my own to share with all of you and that is im finally PREGNANT again 19weeks, I have had plenty of scans and the baby is ok all measurements are fine for the stage (him or her) are at! The hospital have put me in the Low risk so i have chose not to go back to Kings hospital unless anything untoward is found on the scans (like they did when i was carrying Laila) I have all the normal signs of a normal pregnancy and i can actually feel this baby moving, which is a godsend as laila never made any movements at all.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#ff9900 size=5>It seems strange talking on here about it as for 2 months i kept it quiet from my boys and outside people,not even my friends down at the childrens school new, but it seems as though everything is going ok so i decided to tell you all my news on here too!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#ff9900 size=5>I am still somewhat worried cause no one knows what could happen! So everyday is a bonus and another day nearer to me meating this new little one. Im not sure of the sex of this baby yet as the last scan only showed the babys back (spine ) and the back of the head, this i did find extrememly strange as i have never seen a baby lying this way before but they say its ok so i will have to go along with that till my next scan which is in 10days time! As for what sex i would like i really dont care as long as its healthy and arrives safely into my world............ the baby is due the end of may 2008. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#ff9900 size=5>I think i may ask the sex though at the next scan as my hubby and the boys would like to know ..........i would love a surprise BUT what do i buy? i have no boys clothes just clothes that me and hayley bought when i was expecting laila..... im not sure if ill use them but we will see, thats if its a girl anyhow!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#ff9900 size=5>Well time is flying by on here and i need to sort out the boys so i will say good night to all and a big Happy New year to you all.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#ff9900 size=5>Thanks for popping by and reading. i hope it wasnt too boring for you all.lol.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#ff9900 size=5>kerryanne</FONT></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com19tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-78095224256156407992007-08-25T14:23:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.359-07:00Our Holiday<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Hi all you J~Landers</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5> .<IMG alt="th69967523GchqfL_ph.jpg image by Kerryanne73" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_th69967523GchqfL_ph.jpg"/></FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Thought i would come back on maybe a happier Note than Last time.</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Well i hope everyone is well and /or feeling a little better!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>As i said in my last entry we went on Holiday!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Where was it you may all ask "well we went to Kessingland" Its in Essex ~ </FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>We had a Lovely time Just went for one week!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>The weather was beautiful and it lasted the whole week, which was wonderful as we had the sun and the Beach for the boys Great!!!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>I have managed to do a slide show of some of my family pictures of our time there! some of the boys playing in the park, others of the beach, one of me with a Zoolu (if thats how its spelt) lol anyway that was at Africa life it was a Massive Zoo, the amount of room the animals had was amazing! (better than Colchester Zoo). There i go again waffling away! lol and there is another of my husband and the 3 boys on the way to the club in the evenning!</FONT></EM><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=fb63bfe1.pbw"></A></FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT size=5><FONT color=#ff0000>Well i did do the slide show However im not sure how i get it onto here from photobucket!! So Sorry but as soon as i find out i will add here in this entry for all to see! Sorry im still learning on all this stuff .lol</FONT></FONT></EM></P>
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<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Well I hope you like anyway.</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Also in my entry this time i would like to say that sugars Tags (sugars shacks) are lovely they are very colourful, so go alone and have a see for yourselves!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5> <IMG alt="thcloudyangel.jpg image by Kerryanne73" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_thcloudyangel.jpg"/></FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Its nearly 11 months on the 30th since my baby girl has been gone ~ Somewhat strange~ Went to see my councellor and she has said the same that how i reacted with my emotions after loosing another was quite normal as i was somehow protecting myself by blocking out the hurt and the guilt.</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>So soon i will start looking and maybe ordering a headstone for Laila as it will be a Year on the 30th September 2007. </FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Also School is back in one weeks time and my second eldest boy is off to secondary school, which is scary! He did very well with his sats exams i was very proud of him as he tryed so hard and put so much effort into them that he won an award on his last day of his primary school for best effort ( but sadly didnt get to keep the award just has his name placed on it) But also won another for Best success in getting a level 4 regardless of his dissabilty.... So well done Son im proud of you!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5> <IMG alt="DSC00596.jpg image by Kerryanne73" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_DSC00596.jpg"/></FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Lastly my Youngest is starting school but will only go mornings till october as he is 4 and a half then.... so im going to be alone with no kids in my house all day soon! (boy i wont know what to do with me self) No doubt the housework will keep me busy though.lol and if it dont then ill occupy myself with my card making as ienjoy it alot but dont often get the time.lol</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Well this was a better note for me to finnish on.</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>would like to say Congratulations to all for the J~ Land Anniversary.</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5><IMG alt="sskj-landbears3.jpg image by Kerryanne73" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_sskj-landbears3.jpg"/></FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff>Thanks Sugar for this lovely</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff>Tag.x</FONT></EM></P>
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<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5>Be Back Soon . Hugs to all xxxx</FONT></EM></P>
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<P><EM><FONT color=#3366ff size=5> <IMG alt="KerryAnne_gradwhtSST.jpg image by Kerryanne73" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Kerryanne%20tags/th_KerryAnne_gradwhtSST.jpg"/></FONT></EM></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-60253945272469906492007-08-16T09:30:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.359-07:00hi everyone<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Hi every one </FONT></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Thought id drop a line and say hi!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>I need to get stuff off my chest ! Here we go !</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Well the summer hasnt been too bad i suppose! The kids are enjoying there time off school but i think they are now needing to go back to school .lol.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Right here i go.... im due to see my councellor but im going away again this weekend for a week with my family and will have to cancel my appointment, so im going to waffle on here!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Just before the boys broke up for their holidays i found out i was pregnant .... Strangely i showed no emotion to this other than the pure worry of what if it all goes wrong again! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Well i got to 7 weeks and was due to go for a scan on the 18th of july but on the 17th i had a scare, nothing to bad to expect of a miscarriage so thought it would maybe stop!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>The day of the 18th i went for my scan and shockingly they could not find anything! oh my god i thought could i of been imagining i was pregnant!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>The test showed positive ! My consultant told me i was not imagining it, its just early and sometimes they dont show, plus my ovaries and the womb linning were doing everything they were suppose to be doing for a pregnancy! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>So my consultant did another pregnancy test while i was there and sent me for a blood test to measure the level of the pregnancy hormone.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>That evenning i waited for the telephone call i didnt know what to think, but knew in my heart this was the start of it to all go wrong!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>The telephone rang and i grabbed at it waiting for the voice of a nurse i was gagging to know what was going on!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>The nurse told me my pregnancy was positive but the level of hormones was not very high and that i would have to repeat the test in 2 days but i was definitely pregnant! They also told me that if my levels of hormones were to rise but not enough then i would have to prepare myself for the fact it could be an eptopic. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>They next few days were stressfull and i started to loose more, so i thought its got to be a miscarriage, so off i went to the hospital again for the blood test and awaited the phone call later that afternoon!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>All i kept telling myself that ive probably miscarried by now. All my emotions about it though were so numb, i had visited lailas grave and i felt so guilty because she was not here with us un yet i would be bringing another baby here (that i'd hoped would get here) So everything i felt was real numb (how strange)</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Anyway the phone rang and i got news that i was still pregnant but the levels had not risen and suffient amount and that this normally happens when a miscarriage is starting or an eptopic, and that i would have to repeat again another blood test on the tuesday!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>so i got through that weekend and then on the monday i had to go into hospital as i felt quite unwell . They did the test again and i was told to go home and rest or i would have to stay in the hospital. So i came home and rested and the next morning i rang the hospital for the results!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>To my suprise i was still pregnant! but was told that they would be scanning me on wednesday and that if my loss became painfull i should go to the hospital again!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Now i thought this is an eptopic then! All the worry of loosing one of my tubes i was stressed out me box! But the wednesday came and i was relived to say they found the pregnancy and the sac that it was in but i was miscarrying! Part of me was relived that it wasnt a eptopic as that would of lessened the chance of having or trying for another baby! And at the same time i felt sad, because another one had tried to get here and yet unfortunately didnt! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>However i was due to go on holiday with my family and i went and had a lovely time and enjoyed every minute with the boys, they gave me lots of fun and laughter! But the one thing they wanted to do was go swimming and that was a no no cause i wasnt to go on holiday either, but my consultant relented and told me to be careful but no swimming cause of infection and also that if i felt unwell in any way i was to go to the nearest hospital. So sorry boys but were off away on saturday so maybe we can go swimming this time!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>As for my emotions they seem to be shattered and im numb from head to foot , Feel as though im on auto pilot doing what i am meant to be doing!Even with laila i feel so numb no emotion what so ever!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>The night before last i lay in bed staring at her picture i have with me holding her hoping i would feel something but nothing im emptied out! Why i was overwhelmed with emotion for her i feel cruel to her!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Well my day today has been shopping with the boys for last minute school things and stuff for our holday and then we went on to lailas grave so i could take fresh flowers and give it a tidy for her so that it still looks pretty!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>And now im on here but must be off cause i have jobs waiting and the youngest needs to get ready for bed soon.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Hope i havent bored you all ! But i had to get it off me chest!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>Well hope everyone is ok ! i think of you all but dont often get on the computer for long to come and browse, but hopefully will when the boys go back to school.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>hugs kerryanne x</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4>here ill leave you with a picture of my 3 boys dressed up for the club on holiday!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT face=Verdana color=#6666ff size=4></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><IMG style="WIDTH: 121px; HEIGHT: 160px" height=160 alt="DSC00742.jpg my boys being statues.lol image by Kerryanne73" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_DSC00742.jpg" width=146/> dont they look funny lol. bless them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-38777615070655336792007-07-03T14:16:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.360-07:00biding time<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#3333ff size=5><EM>Its been a long while since ive been here ! And somewhat hard in coming back ! </EM></FONT></P>
<P><EM><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#3333ff size=5>Your all often in my thoughts! </FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#3333ff size=5>Wanted to say hi to everyone in j~land !!!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#3333ff size=5></FONT></EM> </P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=7>Its been so long omg this is going to be a hard one!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=7>My Family and i are well, we have been getting on with reality of being parents and trying to stay strong for the boys , there have been up and down days ! And Laila is always in our thoughts and of course the boys still mention her too.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6>She has definitley not been forgotten! we regulary go to the cemetary and take flowers and chimes and pretty garden ornaments to make her grave nice and pretty looking!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6>Its been 9 months since she has been gone and strangely enough i know she isnt here in person but she is with me (that sounds realy strange but i know what i mean) every night i say goodnight to her ! I go to sleep looking at the picture of me holding her in my arms so in a way she is still very close to me and im glad for that feeling!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6>My husbands daughter delivered her baby on friday she had a little boy! we visited them both in the hospital (that felt strange but i was ok and didnt feel in the slightest broody at all.lol this makes me laugh cause i say to myself how can i be maternal when im not to other babies that are not my own.lol one day maybe ill work that one out!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6>My sister is getting married on saturday and i wish her and terry the very best of a happy life together ~ she deserves to be happy~ So a big congrats mandy and terry will be thinking of you both and will see you the following week!!! (best get making your card now) .lol. </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6>I do have some news and will share it with you all soon......</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6>im going to close on that note!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6>I wish everyone well in j~land </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6>I have enjoyed my short while on here again , just typing away not giving a care in the world! </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6>Take care all xxxxxxxxhugs kerryanne xxxxxxxxxx</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#cc33cc size=6> <IMG style="WIDTH: 169px; HEIGHT: 117px" height=112 alt=2754876921.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_2754876921.jpg" width=189/> </FONT></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-92215498516866690532007-01-03T17:46:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.360-07:00We are here in the NEW YEAR 2007<P><FONT color=#804000 size=4> Hi to all in J~Land</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#804000 size=4></FONT> </P>
<P><FONT color=#804000 size=4>This is just a quickie to say im still around and will be on here again real soon but its 1-37am in morning and im off to bed !!! Now i have finnished sorting out me sidebar cause i went into a Complete Wally and Deleted it all by mistake ~Furious i was ~ But hey ive done it now!!! Took me 3 days to do but YEAH ive did it...</FONT></FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#804000 size=4>And i want to say a Big thankyou to all who have made tags for me and especially for my Side bar !!! Do you like? Hope So! Well it was made by Ds Designs ... What a Beauty!! Thankyou D...</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#804000 size=6> <IMG alt=wwwkitty-peaches-.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_wwwkitty-peaches-.jpg"/></FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#804000 size=6>So Now i want to wish Everyone in J~Land.......</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#804000 size=6>A HAPPY NEW YEAR FOR 2007 *</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#804000 size=6>hope all your wishes and dreams come </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#804000 size=6> </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-43758873552412830452006-12-12T15:21:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.360-07:00Another day towards christmas<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#008000 size=4>Hi all x</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#008000 size=4>Well i thought i should change my background and get into the christmas spirit !!! So i put a few christmassy things on my side bar !</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#008000 size=4>Thanks to you mandy for the mikes gifts (i went and scrolled through and grabbed a few and then a few more .lol (oh my will she curse me) But anyway Thankyou to mikesfreegifs they helped me to get into the spirit a bit more on here....</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#008000 size=4>I would like to thank all of you that Welcomed back for your comments it is really kind of you all. You are all so very nice people who dont find it difficult to let me know that you care (that is real sweet of you so hugs to you all)x</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#008000 size=4>Well today i told you i was taking my son Georgie to London as he had an appointment at the hospital (this is to do with his leg and his arm) As he has Rightsided Hemeplegia i think i told you all before that when georgie was 23months old he had a Stroke and has since learnt to adjust and cope with his abilities of doing things different from other children the same age especially with his learning difficulties ! Any how georgies consultant was very pleased with him and he has to go back after christmas for some adjustments to the splint and then another follow up in March (hey im glad for the break ) I have only been driving since November 2004 and i threw myself into the deep end with doing the Hospital Runs as these are quite far from where i live (this was my reasons for really pushing myself to learn to drive so that i could be there for georgie and all his appointments instead of relying on my Hubby and of course so i could run my other children about too. And i did it with an accident on my last driving lesson ( which was not my fault may i say ) this was 3 days before my test and when the day came i went to the test centre with my side wing and door taped !!! I never thought for a minute they would pass me especially with me car in such a state lol!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#008000 size=4>Anyway im absolutely Shattered today now i have been on the go all day . And guess what? do you remember me saying that i hoped to get decorated for christmas WELL WE HAVE MADE A START YIPPEE on the quiet im thrilled to bits and my hubby has helped me such alot with getting it going BLESS HIM !!! He keeps telling me ill mess up if i paint and that my place is to be in the kitchen behind the stove and to leave him to the mens work LOL WELL I WAS NOT HAVING IT so he had to tolerate me having a go at the painting and scrapping off the old paper LOL !!! SEE LIKE I KEEP TELLING HIM WE WOMEN ARE MULTI TALENTED AND CAN DO MORE THAN ONE THING AT A TIME ....not like the other gender one thing at a time for them !!!lol</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#008000 size=4>Well tomorrow is a day for my youngest samuel to go to playschool so i can paint my main wall! and we are having RASPBERRY all over it !!! my other colour is Eygptian sand on the other 2 walls (i thought this colour would be like Magnolia but now it is on the wall its like an old fashion light gold ....DIFFERENT.... but i think it will look lovely when its finnished so i have to get cracking cause im hoping it will be done by the end of this week PLEASE GOD i need to put up a christmas tree yet and finnish the boys shopping for their pressies too! so i must get some sleep and get cracking!!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#008000 size=4>Well once again thankyou for stopping by </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#008000 size=4>speak again soon x kerryanne x</FONT></EM></STRONG> </P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-79612992660249803662006-12-11T16:09:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.361-07:00BACK TO ME WRITTING AGAIN<P><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=5>Hi to everyone in J~Land.....</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=5>This is a quick entry as i made a deal with my niece Hayley that i would show an appearance. However this is hard as i havent been here for 4 weeks and its hard to come back . </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=5>I found it hard writting on here for a while but i had beareavement councelling and the lady told me to write, this was a couple of weeks ago and ive still found it hard as im not sure what to say to everyone. And also how i feel too. extremely strained and very very numb and how do i explain myself like this, Maybe like a Jigsaw very puzzled about everything to do with laila.................... Even visiting her grave i found hard and did not go for 2 weeks but i have been this week twice ! I left her a christmas Cross but still im numb.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=5>Anyway dont want to bore you all ....</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=5>So here you are Hayley ive made an appearance and now i must go lol...... Bedtime and an early rise for the hospital run to london for my son Georgie !!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=5></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=5>So speak again soon hugs to all ....</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=5>Kerryanne xxxxxxxxx</FONT></STRONG></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-81513251991222230122006-11-15T16:03:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.361-07:00Its Real Quite in J~Land<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>Hi <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=angels11.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_angels11.jpg"/></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>Hope everyone is ok in J~Land, your all very quiet out there at the moment! It must be that time of Year, Everyone must be preparing theirselves for the christmas RUSH. And of course all the colds are about now too, We have had a right run of the colds, Georgie has just got over his one, Samuel Too, and now my son Michael has one and Samuel is ill again too with his Asthma! He is on Antibiotics and Steriods (hence very hyperactive at the moment) Bless him. And then theres ME i have a right rotten cold,sore throat and cough i think its a chest infection starting . YOU KNOW US WOMEN THOUGH WE PULL THROUGH ANYTHING!!!LOL especially when there are little ones in our Family.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>Anyway i went for my 6 week check and my councelling is on the 28th november as i sigh HUH, i not really the type of person that wants to do this But i will try! Other than that im fine have been given lots of excercises to do~because i have a tear in my stomach muscles and i have to strengthen them again. This however will take some time again but i will do them. I cant be doing with a Saggy belly LOL not yet anyway!!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=thangelbar.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_thangelbar.gif"/></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>Yesterday i went back to kings College Hospital and Saw Professor Kipros Nicholades, My brother Pete came with me and he drove us ! He has been so supportive to me (THANKYOU~PETE)</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=thangelbar.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_thangelbar.gif"/></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>Well i was Greeted as nice as they could, they tried to get me to sit in a room away from all the other Pregnant Ladies , of which i refused because it seemed silly to hide away because of my own feelings! And also i had Samuel with me and he was playing quite happy under the circumstances with being on his Steriods!</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>So i see the professor! He is a very nice Man However very blunt and to the point, while i was pregnant i found this quite hard to except the way he dealt with the situation! But once we started talking and he asked how i was it broke the ice!</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>We talked for sometime about Laila's Condition and that there was nothing that could be done to save her!(bless her) But he did say that my tests that i had done for Mytonic Dystrophy (which came back negative) and the other one which still is not back (my results) did not matter anycase, as these tests that were taken Were unnessercary as it would not be linked to Lailas Condition! </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> </FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>But my Good News was that i could try again for another Baby if i so wished, however i feel a bit guilty! as i will never have my little girl! And another Baby will never ever take her place!!!!! but i would if get pregnant go straight back to kings Hospital and be scanned personally by the professor at 12 weeks. If there were anything that showed up the same as when i was pregnant with Laila, they would offer me the TABLET that ends the pregnancy earlier! </FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>So my out come was good but however like i said i do feel very guilty to Laila wanting to try again, and of course if the worse came to the worse i know i would feel guilty if i had to take the tablet! But my child bearing days are not over Yet!!!!! So lets see, what will be will be ! All i wish is that if and when whether another girl which would be a real Godsend if Healthy another boy and Healthy too. i would just be lucky to get a healthy baby at the end!!! And that is all that matters!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=5><FONT color=#400000> </FONT><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=2342504737.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch15"><FONT color=#400000><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=2342504737.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_2342504737.jpg"/></FONT></A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5>Well i have kept promising you all my other poems and have decided that Michael my 6 yr old one i will place on this journal as he has really took it to heart about his sister! However it is short and i did help him with the words and the picture above it is what he has chosen, so i hope you all like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</FONT><FONT size=5></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400000> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=thangelbar.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_thangelbar.gif"/></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> I am so upset,</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> you had to go</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> My wish for a</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> sister</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> Just can not</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> be so.</FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000> <FONT size=4>For the Angels</FONT> </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000> Came to take</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000> You Above </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> to make you</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> Happy</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> and</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> give you </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> lots</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> of love</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> So now all</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> i can do is</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> send you</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> plenty of</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> prayers up</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> Above.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> Love</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> your </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> </FONT><FONT size=5><FONT color=#400000> Brother </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000 size=5> Michael</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000> xxxxxxx</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000> xxx</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400000>Well that is all for now this evenning all you J~Landers Sleep well and hope you have a great Day .</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400000>xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400000>p.s sorry a.o.l. is playing me up with entry!!!! blasted aol. urggggghh </FONT>xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx</P></FONT></FONT>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-86589485323970342402006-11-12T15:24:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.361-07:00THE END OF MY SUNDAY EVENNING<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>GOOD EVENNING TO ALL YOU J~LANDERS!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
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<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Well i got through Friday (georgies birthday) it was a long day!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Once i got the boys off to school i headed off for my chaotic day!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=angel9.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_angel9.jpg"/></FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>First on the Agenda was pins, we got them from a camping shop, as i needed them for Laila's daisy chain. Then we stopped at a Florist and i bought a bouquet of flowers to go on Lailas Grave and then we went to the Grave!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>It was Freezing Cold and really windy!!! But hey i wasnt stopping till i'd finnished what needed to be done. So my Husband mick placed the cross and Tapped it in the ground for me! Then we placed the daisy chains round and i pinned them into the ground! My Hubby mick went on search for some water for the flowers, while i finnished tidying up and then in went the flowers and i was done my mission was complete. Very Hard for us both to be there together cause as strange as it was we just did what we had to do .. we were like Auto pilots. My hubby shed some tears as we left but i could not i feel so, so numb i didnt even know what to say to him to comfort him, this sounds so harsh but its like ive buried my emotions behind a wall and <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Laila%20tags/?action=view&current=1945871045.jpg&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch2"></A>there not coming out for no~one not even me!!! </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=1945871045.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Laila%20tags/th_1945871045.jpg"/></FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Well from there it was time to go straight home as the boys were coming out of school shortly, once home my Friend came around Lorraine and brought Georgie some balloons round and a Birthday card!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Then Dean my eldest turned up and we headed to the school to pick up the two horrors!!lol.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>We celebrated Georgies Birthday at bowling, We all went including my mum and pete and his friend Katy and then our other friends Heather and Paul.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>The boys had a great time including samuel as he found it was great to ride about on georgies Skateboard that heather and paul got him, this was real funny we were all in uproar!lol</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Then Saturday was housework day!!!Yuk!!! i did loads of washing and ironning! And then the evenning i went out to watch a Band they are called Eagles Dare! My eldest son dean is going out with a girl called Sharn they are Great together have a lot in common! Anyway Lorraine my friend is sharns Mum and she is married to Glenn and it was his band that we went to watch! The Pub however was very old and some of the people seemed a bit iffy.lol but it was a good evenning! i enjoyed the break away from home. I stayed sobar too as i was driving !!!lol!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Sunday . I did lots of more Housework (boring) battled the boys with homework and Baths, the day was a strain with my 6 year old as he was testing my patience no end . </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>My hubby went and collected our new car (Sangyong Musso ) it is second hand of course but its in real nice condition from what ive seen of it in the dark(lol) this evenning! </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Then it was more ironning ! Then i came on here and all my Favorite stuff that i have on the toolbar had dissapeared ( i was not pleased in the slightest, but i have sorted it all out) atleast i can do that without mucking it up or changing the size lol. this was simple stuff for my brain lol .</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Also i have started making Cards i made some for mandy for her birthday! im sure she will show you all and then i made some for georgie for his 11th birthday! Also i made another one for my friends grandaughter as it was her birthday the same day as georgie . here is the pic of it!<IMG class=thumbnailover alt=DSC00128.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_DSC00128.jpg"/> i was real pleased with myself .... so i shall have a go at making some more and then the place where i got Lailas flowers for the funeral, the Lady Gill is going to allow me to take my cards to her shop and she will see if they sell. so we can only see!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Anyway im going to go as i have another busy day tomorrow, im taking my hubby to the hospital for he has an eye appointment to go to and he is not to drive. awe what a shame ill have to drive him lol.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>And then when i get back from that i will be going to my doctors as i have my 6 weeks post natel check im not looking forward to that one but ill still go!!! A must is a must so be it!!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=garfield-mondays-6-7.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_garfield-mondays-6-7.jpg"/></FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Well goodnight all</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Speak soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxkerryannexxxxxxxxxxxxxx</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-62810570462708105752006-11-08T15:31:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.362-07:00JUST A FEW LINES BEFORE I GO TO BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>hi everyone, <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=59865ludvn5cuou.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_59865ludvn5cuou.gif"/> </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Thanks for the comments on our halloween!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=eye2eye.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch42"></A></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Everything has been the usual chaos in my house for the last 2 weeks, New things have been arising, and im now finding things a bit hard but i suppose things will be this way for a while.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>My youngest was poorly last week with high tempreture and sickness and a rash, but he is now well and will be back to playschool.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>My other two have been so so poorly, georgie has had the high tempreture and headaches yesterday and the day before and Michael well he was feeling a bit left out i think, but has been having trouble with his hearing for some time and this has now arisen again. So tonight we went to the doctors and he has been given more ear drops and will be going to have his ears syringed YUK i do hope that it is not painfull for him as i remember mine were!!!! </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Oh and last night we had a power cut for about half an hour THE BOYS thought it was great no lights but candles and the curtains open with our cars HEADLIGHTS on LOL!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Luckily it wasnt for too long as i had just been shopping and filled me freezer . Also we have gekos LIZARDS in a heated tank and their heat was off too, but they are fine !</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Well hopefully the kids will be back to school and playschool and then i can go and do some shopping for Georgies birthday !!!! PLEASE KIDS!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Georgie will be 11 years on Friday to the day 1.46am he was born in the morning. Funny ole girl i am i always remember the time they were born (must be the maternal instint in me lol) . Well anyway tonight i have been making his birthday cards from us and his brothers!! (hope he likes them) </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Tommorow will be shopping for his presents and cake etc... Dont have time for cake making those years are done with now as i buy it .</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=eye2eye.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_eye2eye.gif"/></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Also i have had a Friend of our make Laila a Wooden cross for her grave it is Lovely so hopefully i will be able to pick this up tomorrow too.... And then ill place all her daisy chain round her grave too and start to decorate it (I cant wait ) i havent been to the grave for about 12 days now and it is starting to put a bit of strain on me as i feel the crushing in my chest again so maybe its where im anxious to go back again. </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>I will be be putting my poem on here soon and maybe one of her pictures !</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Also my 6 year olds poem that he wrote for her, bless him !!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6></FONT></STRONG> </P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>Well goodnight for now and ill speak to you all soon .</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>im off to iron and get myself to bed!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6>KERRYANNE</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6><FONT size=4>THANKS TO CHRIS FROM</FONT></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6><FONT size=4>CABS CREATIONS ITS A BEAUTIFUL PICTURE </FONT></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6><FONT size=4>TO EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL XXX.</FONT></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#008040 size=6><IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 230px; HEIGHT: 144px" height=144 alt=00239-1.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_00239-1.gif" width=494/><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=00239-1.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch72"></A></FONT></STRONG></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-76480401378492333442006-11-07T13:24:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.362-07:00Im Back with My Halloween Entry<P><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=mmcHalloweenGraveYardClarks-vigif.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch77"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=mmcHalloweenGraveYardClarks-vigif.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_mmcHalloweenGraveYardClarks-vigif.gif"/></A> WELL HERE IT IS! our HALLOWEEN NIGHT!!!</P>
<P><FONT color=#800000>The night<FONT size=7> b</FONT><FONT size=6>efore i dressed up the Living Room,so all the Boys would be excited in the Morning! We had planned to dress up and go TRICK~TREATING~ and they were real EXCITED . <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/?action=view&current=DSC00089.jpg&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch7"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=DSC00089.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/th_DSC00089.jpg"/></A>this was what was hanging from our Door!</FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000><FONT size=6>Here is our Fire~place decorated<A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/?action=view&current=DSC00083.jpg&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch7"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=DSC00083.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/th_DSC00083.jpg"/></A>this is the top<A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/?action=view&current=DSC00084.jpg&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch1"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=DSC00084.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/th_DSC00084.jpg"/></A></FONT></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000 size=6>and down the side. Sorry the pictures could be better if i knew how to turn them round but hey there still good.lol so the kids say anyway!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000 size=6>The boys had a lovely halloween Tea, but i did not take a pic, of this (cause i forgot) also Never got pic of the 2 elder boys cause once they were finnish they put their jammas on before i got a chance to snap some pics! <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=672905798.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch39"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=672905798.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_672905798.jpg"/></A> </FONT><FONT color=#800000 size=6>Anyway here is their Treat after their Dinner. SKULL & EYE BALLS DESERT!!!<A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/?action=view&current=DSC00090.jpg&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch3"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=DSC00090.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/th_DSC00090.jpg"/></A> this was Jelly with one side topped with Custard and skull sweets and the other side topped with Angel delight and chocolate eyeball sweets! The boys were happy with it and so were their Friends that came to join them !</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000 size=6>We then got ready for some Trick~Treating, Samuel the youngest thought it was great knocking on peoples doors and saying trick or treat "SWEETS" this was funny bless him as it was the 1st year that he came with us that he understood. My Friend and i walked the children round our neighbour hood for 2 hours it was freezing i had Ear ache from the cold by then and called it a day!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000 size=6>We came home with their pots and emptied all the sweets and shared them all out equally, by the time all this was done the boys were late going to bed as they had school the next day! Below is pic of Samuel Dressed as a skeleton, </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000 size=6> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/?action=view&current=DSC00091.jpg&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch4"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=DSC00091.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Family%20pics/th_DSC00091.jpg"/></A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000 size=6>So they day was an Enjoyment for the boys and for me seeing them so happy and full of excitement!!! They all looked good how they had dressed up Michael was like a Dracula and George was like a Sporty dracula!!! if you can imagine what that looks like.lol</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000 size=6>I hope you all had a</FONT> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=sexyhalloween1.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch85"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=sexyhalloween1.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_sexyhalloween1.gif"/></A>.</P>
<P><FONT color=#800000>and i would like to say thankyou for the lovely tags !!! i have had trouble remebering who i got them from i think it was missie and if im wrong ill correct my error!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000>WELL GOOD NIGHT ALL FOR NOW BE BACK SOON WITH MORE!!!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#800000> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=AniBoopWitchKerryanne.gif&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch1"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=AniBoopWitchKerryanne.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_AniBoopWitchKerryanne.gif"/></A> IM SURE MISSIE DONE THIS ONE TOO BUT IM CHECKING INCASE I MADE A MISTAKE!!!! <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=672905798.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch39"></A> </FONT></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-30694204691864380902006-11-05T12:14:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.362-07:00WHAT A WEEKEND OF HECTIC CHAOS<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>HELLO <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=Untitled.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_Untitled.jpg"/></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>to all in J~Land!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=birthday2.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_birthday2.gif"/> <IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 122px; HEIGHT: 123px" height=123 alt=THNKGOOD.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_THNKGOOD.jpg" width=494/> </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>Well my weekend has been a complete and utter rush rush everywhere and the house work is building up ! and i wanted to do all my halloween Entry but Mandy has become the entry this time!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=HappyBirthday-Blackvase-jdz0705.jpg&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch15"><IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 179px; HEIGHT: 145px" height=133 alt=HappyBirthday-Blackvase-jdz0705.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_HappyBirthday-Blackvase-jdz0705.jpg" width=191/></A></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6> Its the 5th of November</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6> FIRE~WORKS</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=butterfly.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_butterfly.gif"/> NIGHT <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=butterfly.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_butterfly.gif"/></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>BUT hey its my sisters Birthday too!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6> SHE IS 40 YRS</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=bows.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_bows.jpg"/> </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6> TODAY</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>when she reads all this on my journal </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>she will want to slap my wrist, but hey mandy your only 40 once so enjoy it, your supposed to start your life at 40 so get going GIRL !!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=hbtoyou-vi.gif src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_hbtoyou-vi.gif"/></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>SO ANY WAY I WISH YOU A VERY VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TODAY!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>I would also like to thank Lynne for all the tags and the beautiful poem that she had done for Mandy and also please say thankyou to kath!!!! For all her time with the getting the tags (especially while she was busy)xxxxxxx</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=Mandy.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_Mandy.jpg"/></FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>Well Mandy! here is your poem and also my happy Birthdays to you!xxxxxxxx MY BIG SISTERxxxxx</FONT></STRONG><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6></P>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=4>"HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY"</FONT></STRONG>
<DIV> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#8000ff size=4><STRONG></STRONG></FONT> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#8000ff size=4><STRONG><IMG id=MA13801123-0075 style="WIDTH: 360px; HEIGHT: 262px" height=262 src="aoladp://MA13801123-0075/THNK%20GOOD.jpg" width=360 vspace=5 DATASIZE="25062"/></STRONG></FONT></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=4></FONT></STRONG> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=4></FONT></STRONG> </DIV>
<DIV><FONT color=#8000ff size=2><STRONG>IT'S SOMEONES 4OTH IN J/LAND TODAY.</STRONG></FONT></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>I HEARD FROM A DICKY BIRD WHO FLEW BY MY WAY.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>I WANT HER TO KNOW I THOUGHT IT A SHAME.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>IF SHE MISSED OUR WISHES SO HERE IS HER NAME.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" DEAR MILLIE HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>I'VE SENT ROUND THE WAITER WITH YOUR CAKE ON A TRAY.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><IMG id=MA13801123-0076 style="WIDTH: 110px; HEIGHT: 160px" height=160 src="aoladp://MA13801123-0076/birthd_001sm2.gif" width=110 vspace=5 DATASIZE="10507"/><IMG id=MA13801123-0077 style="WIDTH: 142px; HEIGHT: 133px" height=133 src="aoladp://MA13801123-0077/WIINE%20FOR%20MILLIE.gif" width=142 vspace=5 DATASIZE="5440"/></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2></FONT></STRONG> </DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>A NICE BOTTLE OF WINE I'M SENDING YOU TOO.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>YES IT'S ME WHO'S ANNOUNED IT tillywooat62.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>I SENT OUT AN E. MAIL TO MY J/LAND FRIEND.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>AND ASKED IF SHE'D WRITE ME THIS RHYME HERE TO SEND,</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>HER NAME IT IS KATH AND SHE KINDLY AGREED.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>SHE WAS BUSY BUT ALWAYS HELPS PEOPLE IN NEED.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>WELL MILLY MOLLY MANDY I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>KATHS PUT IN YOUR PICTURE I THINK THATS SO KIND.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>I'LL BE THINKING OF YOU AND HOPE THAT YOU GET.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>EVERYTHING YOU WISH FOR YOUR BEST BIRTHDAY YET.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>IV'E ALSO SENT CHOCOLATES PERSONALISED FOR YOU.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><IMG id=MA13801123-0078 style="WIDTH: 189px; HEIGHT: 147px" height=147 src="aoladp://MA13801123-0078/CHOCS.jpg" width=189 vspace=5 DATASIZE="6648"/></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2> I COULDN'T GET HOLD OF A TICKET FOR THE ZOO.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>WE KNOW YOU LOVE ANIMALS AND MUSIC AS WELL.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>THE DICKY BIRD CAME BACK AND THIS HE DID TELL.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>MUSIC'S ANOTHER LOVE OF YOURS I DID HEAR.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2><IMG id=MA13801123-0079 style="WIDTH: 200px; HEIGHT: 148px" height=148 src="aoladp://MA13801123-0079/animated-music.gif" width=200 vspace=5 DATASIZE="35697"/> </FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>SO HERES SOME GET DANCING MILLIE MY DEAR.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>KNEES UP BE HAPPY AND ALL OF THE REST.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>I'M NOW ASKING J/LAND TO WISH YOU THE BEST.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>GET OUT THE WINE AND CHOCS HAVE A BALL.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
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<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>AS THE DICKY BIRDS FLYING ROUND NOW TO TELL ONE AND ALL.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
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<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>THAT TODAY YOU ARE 40 AND I HOPE YOU GET MANY.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>WISHES FROM J/LAND INSTEAD OF NOT ANY.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>KATH SAYS'"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" TOO IN THIS RHYME.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>AND I'VE ALREADY THANKED HER FOR TAKING THE TIME.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>"HAPPY 40TH" " HAPPY 40TH"</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>HAVE A GREAT DAY.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>PLEASE J/LAND FRIENDS WILL YOU POP MILLIES WAY.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>TO SEND HER YOUR WISHES AS SOON AS YOU CAN.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>IT WILL MAKE HER REAL HAPPY SO POSITIVE I AM.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>SHE'LL END UP WITH A BIG SMILE ON HER PRETTY FACE.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>PLEASE GO TO Millie's Messings A WISH THERE TO PLACE.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>OR IF YOU PREFER YOU CAN PUT WISHES HERE.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
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<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2><IMG id=MA13801123-0083 style="WIDTH: 95px; HEIGHT: 76px" height=76 src="aoladp://MA13801123-0083/pen%20signing%20form.gif" width=95 vspace=5 DATASIZE="3749"/></FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>ESPECIALLY FOR MILLIE FOR HER 40TH YEAR.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>BEFORE THE RHYME ENDS I MUST TAKE MY STAND.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>AND SAY ONCE AGAIN THANKS ASTORIASAND.</FONT></STRONG></DIV>
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<DIV><STRONG><FONT color=#8000ff size=2>HIP HIP HOORAY! MILLIES 40 TODAY</FONT></STRONG> <IMG class=thumbnailover alt=THNKGOOD.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_THNKGOOD.jpg"/> </FONT></STRONG></DIV></DIV>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>Well Mandy i hope you have had a lovely Day today!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>And to all of those in j~land, thanks for still coming along to my journal, and tomorrow i intend on being back with THE HALLOWEEN ENTRY WITH PICTURES TOO! sorry if i seem to of gone into hiding but like i said hard week and hectic weekend. And my little boy Samuel has been poorly since Wednesday, so its been a bit difficult, he is still poorly with a rash im not sure if its Measles but if he is still poorly by tomorrow then were off to the DOCTORS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>Other than his rash he is pretty ok in his self NOW running me RAGGED!LOL.</FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>lots of hugs </FONT></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><FONT color=#400080 size=6>KERRYANNE XXXXXXXXX</FONT></STRONG></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-12647250739445690292006-11-03T05:41:00.000-08:002008-10-21T15:24:26.363-07:00Recovering after a Hard week!!!<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>Hello to all in J~Land xxx</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=jesuswepray.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch89"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=jesuswepray.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_jesuswepray.jpg"/></A></FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>Well here i am back eventually after My Chaos weekend and week that i have had!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>I told you in my last entry that i would let you all know how the Memorial went Last Saturday, so here goes......</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>It was a Beautiful service Held in the Same Room that was where my daughter Laila's Funeral! This i feel was quite comforting!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>There were so Many parents that Attended, i was shocked the amount of people that was there. The room was over~crowded~ The Service Began and a Lady stood up and told us all of the how the Forget~me~nots First started and it was all because of this Lady's loss of her daughter Grace, she felt the need to fund~raise for the hospital so that there would be a Room for other sad Couples to use through such a sad time of their loss, this happened 11 years ago! So for 11 years she had the support of her family and midwives and the forget~me~not group is still going strong!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>There was a Beautiful poem Read and then another Lady got up and spoke of her Loss of her daughter too! These Stories of what happened to them was so sad too! I had many lumps in my throat this day and many little tears too that trickled down my face! I think that day Many,many tears were shed!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>Next came the Reverend that call out one at a time everyones babies Names that had been lost and then we all got to light a candle ! This was hard getting up in front of others, but i managed it without floods of tears (funny how we can all control our emotions in such hard circumstances)!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>Then after this we had some prayers and then the we had another Poem read ( the forget~me~nots)</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>They played Lovely music while the candles were being lit ( somewhere over the rainbow) and the (Fields of gold) BY EVA CASSIDY so very very appropiate. These were the songs i played once i lost Laila and deciding on her Music for the Funeral of which, i chose Ribbons in the sky by stevie wonder and then Tears in Heaven By Eric~Clapton and then Somewhere over the Rainbow by Eva~Cassidy!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>So as you can imagine it was very emotional time for myself while listenning to the same music but somehow it was nice too!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>We all then left the building to go outside into the grounds where some of the Forget~me~nots Lay and we all placed a Tag on Pink and Blue Balloons with our messages attached for our babies. Then we all released them into the sky A most incredible moment to see so many Balloons in the sky! There were so many people taking photos but unfortunately due to being divvy Lol i do not have any photos to show as i took so long trying to get my camera out of my bag once i got it there was only 2 balloons in the sky !!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>So Next year u will have some to see as im preparing me self and will organised for the event!!!Lol</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>We then signed a book of memorial and had tea and coffee and then i left to visit my daughters Grave side.</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=inGodsHands.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch97"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt=inGodsHands.jpg src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_inGodsHands.jpg"/></A></FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>Then i drove home to pick my 2 boys up from their Birthday Party that they had gone to. Of which they thoroughly ENJOYED!!!! </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>Well i hope you all have had a good week and i will be back again shortly as my Mum has turned up and i havent seen her for a week and she shouting at me CUPPA TEA !!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>so hugs to all in J~Land </FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>Thanks for all your comments and support!!!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5> KERRYANNE</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT color=#408080 size=5>xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-67432476029025023012006-10-26T14:12:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.363-07:00WHERE IS EVERYONE THIS WEEK!!!<P> </P>
<P>HI EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!</P>
<P><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=thLovecommentsBlRoxy.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch7"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_thLovecommentsBlRoxy.gif"></A> where are you all this week have you gone into hibernation.LOL Your all very Quiet So I expect Busy too!!!!</P>
<P><FONT color=#008000> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=bardk5.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch107"><IMG class=thumbnailover height=8 alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_bardk5.gif" width=170></A> </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000>Well the Last Few Days have been busy for me too.! Thats an understatement Really as nothing has really got done with me chores! I have been Shopping again, see told you all I LOVE SHOPPING!!! Well Christmas is only round the corner and for me i have to start shopping pretty early so that way i can afford all those presents LOL. I love buying presents!!! <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=bardk5.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch107"><IMG class=thumbnailover height=8 alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_bardk5.gif" width=170></A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000>I told you all i think that Last Weekend when mandy my sister came over i bought her a present NOTHING MUCH but it was to show my appreciation for all her help she gave me at the time of Laila coming into the world. She was excellent, Anyhow i was out shopping and came across a keyring in a heart shape and it read across the front Sister. well it had a catch to it and when i openned it ~ it had a place for a picture each side ~ so inside it i put a picture of her niece Laila and on the other a Piece that said thankyou ! Hayley mandys daughter liked it but it was unfortunate that i could not get her one as they did not have Niece on it and nor a plain one, But i have now found something very similar for her and my brother pete . So i just hope they like it .~</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000>Well here is the update on my brothers~nose!!! lol. He came home from Hospital Yesterday Morning after his op ( the operation is to help him breathe better through his nose as he was having a bit of trouble) So it wasnt so he had a Spectacular Looking Boat!! Sorry Pete! I have to Laugh!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000>He is in a lot of pain Bless him and he is coping really well, The hospital gave him pain relief but today he needed to have something stronger today which his doctor perscribed for him. I visited him last night with my son georgie and my sister mandy and her family were there too. It was sad to see him poorly as such but our nephew Ryan (Mandy's son Kept making us laugh as he is so comical) So poor pete was just laying there while we was all errupting in laughter. I assure you pete we are not wicked really LOL. But wish you well Real soon and then we can see the new BOAT!!! </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000>Well other than that Not much else to say except tomorrow ill be off to the grave to hopefully put a new plaque up and arrange Lailas Daisy chain!!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000>And then Getting Ready for the Boys to go to a Birthday Party on Saturday and im going to the memorial ( the boys were invited to the memorial but i thought it fair to give them the choice and im sure in childrens eyes a party is far more exciting than a service, and at the same time they should enjoy thereselves as it hasnt been much fun for them.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000>BUT BOYS LOOK~OUT HALLOWEEN NEXT WEEK AND WILL WE CELEBRATE IT REAL GOOD ~</FONT> <FONT color=#008000>X</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000>SO I NEED TO BE OFF TO START MAKING THERE HALLOWEEN CARDS OTHERWISE I WONT GET A CHANCE OVER THE WEEKEND!!!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000>SO BYE TO YOU ALL FOR NOW SPEAK SOON IN A FEW DAYS!!!!!</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#008000 size=1>Thanks to Roxy for her lovely pics links are on my side bar......</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000 size=1>And also to sugar for the lovely memorial picture with my daughters name on and delivery date!!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#008000 size=1>KERRYANNE~ <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=th69967523GchqfL_ph.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch70"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_th69967523GchqfL_ph.jpg"></A></FONT></P>
<P><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=thanisnowflakewave.gif&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch12"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_thanisnowflakewave.gif"></A> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=thLovecommentsBlRoxy.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch7"></A></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-11853506530311380312006-10-24T16:34:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.364-07:00THE LONG DAYS<P>HI AGAIN TO ALL IN J~LAND TODAY HAS BEEN NOT SO BAD ~ A SO SO DAY I SUPPOSE!!!! I TOOK MY BOYS TO THE DENTIST TODAY AND THEY <FONT size=6>ALL</FONT> DID GREAT WELL~DONE BOYS ! I WAS REALLY PLEASED WITH THEM AS THEY ALL SIT BACK IN THAT CHAIR AND OPEN THEIR MOUTHS WIDE AND BOBS YOUR UNCLE (THEY ONLY DO IT CAUSE THEY KNOW AT THE END OF IT THEY WILL GET A STICKER LOL) SUPRISING WHAT KIDS WILL DO FOR A REWARD, THEIR LIKE PUPPIES WAITING FOR THEIR TREAT!!! I PROMISED THE BOYS I WOULD TAKE THEM SHOPPING FOR A FEW MORE BITS FOR HALLOWEEN, THESE BOYS LOVE TO SHOP !!! SEE THEY MUST OF INHERITED SOMETHING GOOD OFF THEIR MOTHER!</P>
<P> ! WE LOVE TO SHOP!</P>
<P>SO THEY ALL GOT BITS AND PIECES AND I DID MY BIT (I LOVE A BARGAIN ME) MANDY HOWEVER CANT STAND MY SHOPPING ,CAUSE I CAN GO ON AND ON (SORRY MAND)</P>
<P>WELL I GOT BITS FOR LAILAS SCRAPBOOK THAT I INTEND ON MAKING TO PUT ALL HER TAGS AND PHOTOS IN (IM LOOKING FORWARD TO DOING IT) I ALSO DONE A BIT OF ME SISTERS BIRTHDAY SHOPPING AND IF YOUR READING MAND IM NOT TELLING YOU WHAT IT IS~LOL</P>
<P>ALSO DONE A BIT OF CHRISTMAS SHOPPING FOR MY NIECE AND HAY DONT EVEN ASK ITS A SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</P>
<P> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=RainbowStarSpin.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch18"><IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 113px; HEIGHT: 99px" height=83 alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_RainbowStarSpin.gif" width=137></A><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=RainbowStarSpin.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch18"><IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 113px; HEIGHT: 99px" height=83 alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_RainbowStarSpin.gif" width=137></A></P>
<P>WELL THEN WE WENT TO THE FUNERAL DIRECTORS AND HAVE ORDERED A PLAQUE FOR LAILAS GRAVE WHICH WILL BE READY ON FRIDAY FOR PICK UP (AT LEAST HER GRAVE WONT BE BARE) I VISITED LAILA YESTERDAY AND ALL HER FLOWERS ARE STARTING TO DIE AND SHE ONLY HAS A FEW LEFT SO ILL BE GOING TO HER GRAVE ON FRIDAY TO TAKE HER PLAQUE AND DEFINITELY ARRANGE HER FLOWERS BETTER AND PUT HER DAISY CHAIN ROUND HER (THE OTHER DAY IT WAS TOO WINDY AND AS I WAS ON MY OWN, I THOUGHT I CAN JUST SEE ME LOOSING IT IN THE WIND AND CHASING IT AROUND THE CEMETARY (NOW THAT WOULD OF BEEN A SIGHT) LOL !!!!!</P>
<P>WELL I WANTED TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL THAT MY BROTHER PETE HAS GONE INTO HOSPITAL FOR SURGERY ON HIS NOSE! I DON'T ENVY HIM IN THE SLIGHTEST BUT I WISH HIM ALL THE BEST WITH HIS OPERATION AND RECOVERY, HE IS A GREAT BROTHER, HE ALWAYS MAKES ME LAUGH THROUGH HAPPY AND SAD TIMES BLESS HIM HE IS THE BEST TOO!!! All my family are tremendous .xxxx</P>
<P>ANYWAY BACK TO PETE! WHEN HE VISITED THE WEEKEND HE MADE ME TAKE PHOTOS OF HIS NOSE BEFORE AND AFTER AND I TOLD HIM I WOULD BE PUTTING THIS ON ME JOURNAL so here you are pete!!! just for you!!! and when he has recovered i will put another one here afterwards! <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=RainbowStarSpin.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch18"></A> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=clarksfamilypictures21-1.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch1"></A> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=clarksfamilypictures21-1.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch1"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_clarksfamilypictures21-1.jpg"></A> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=RainbowStarSpin.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch18"> <IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 113px; HEIGHT: 99px" height=83 alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_RainbowStarSpin.gif" width=137></A></P>
<P><IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 113px; HEIGHT: 99px" height=83 alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_RainbowStarSpin.gif" width=137> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=RainbowStarSpin.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch18"></A></P>
<P>WELL I HOPE YOU WILL BE OK FOR SATURDAY PETE!!! CAUSE I MADE A COMPLETE AND UTTER MUCK UP OF LAILAS MEMORIAL DAY AS I TOLD EVERYONE LAST SATURDAY AND IT WASNT !!!!</P>
<P>I KNOW TALK ABOUT FORGET ME NOT I JUST HOPED I SUPPOSE THAT IT WAS LAST SATURDAY , BUT SILLY ME ITS THIS SATURDAY!!!!!!</P>
<P>ITS THE MEMORIAL OF ALL THE FORGET~ME~NOT BABIES IN OUR TOWN AND IN A WAY IM LOOKING FORWARD TO GOING !! ATLEAST LAILA WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN BLESS HER !!!!</P>
<P> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=1945871045.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch12"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_1945871045.jpg"></A></P>
<P><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=RainbowStarSpin.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch18"></A> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=divheartblinksbestMA12972415-0037.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch25"><IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 139px; HEIGHT: 49px" height=29 alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_divheartblinksbestMA12972415-0037.gif" width=176></A></P>
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<P>WELL ALL THATS MY ENTRY FOR TONIGHT AND THANKS FOR EVERYONES COMMENTS!!!!!</P>
<P>IM OFF TO BED NOW , I HOPE TO FINNISH MY NEXT POEM THAT I WROTE ABOUT LAILA AND WHEN ITS FINNISHED ILL LET YOU ALL HAVE A READ.</P>
<P>TILL THEN GOODNIGHT AND GODBLESS YOU ALL X X X X X </P>
<P>KERRYANNExxxx</P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-90682366425859740362006-10-22T15:21:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.364-07:00What A Weekend<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5><IMG src="http://i90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/S_KerryAnn-vi-1.gif"> </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5> ***Hi Everyone*** </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>How was your Weekend? Good i hope</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=S_KerryAnn-vi.gif&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch1"></A></FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=S_KerryAnn-vi-1.gif&refPage=&imgAnch=imgAnch1"></A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>My Weekend has been a Hard one, Especially</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5> now the children are home with me, as i crave quiet time and me time! This is selfish i know but its so hard to get to grips with NORMALITY back to the trying to get the children back into routines. And the usual household chores, this is where im struggling as i know what im supposed to be doing but dont really want to be doing it so therefore my heart is not in it!!! (This is definitely Selfish and Mean of me but i cant help it)</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>So my weekend was of constant shouting and moaning and then the frustration was just building and building till i had to let some out (Why cant you lot leave me alone) This was bad but i had no other way of trying to say how im feeling and at home everyone is as though normal and i feel like im walking around waiting for this cloud to dissapear and i know this is going to be ages and i also know i have to try and console myself for my Familys sake BUT GOD THIS IS A HARD TEST FOR ANY WOMAN NOT JUST ME! and a cruel one at that!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>Yesterday my brother pete came round and cheered me up a bit, he stayed for dinner and chatted to the boys and we took photos of them together and then out of no-where came a beautiful RAINBOW hooray it had arived outside the back of our house ! We really wanted a Rainbow for Laila on her day but unfortunately it wasnt to be, but anyhow Samuel thought it was GREAT so we took more photos of the rainbow!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>My Sister Mandyalso came round with her Partner Terry (Tinks i call him! this is another story but hey if your reading tinks! have you done your duties lol)</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#40800e>AND ALSO MY WONDERFULNIECE CAME TOO! ~SHE IS SUCH A JOY GOOD COMPANY AND THE BOYS LOVE HER TO BITS , THEY ARE ALWAYS SITTING ON HER AND MESSING AROUND ! YOUR BRILL HAYLEY AND WE ALL LOVE YOU!!!!XXXXXXXXXXXXX</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>Well they stayed for dinner too and then the kids wentto bed and we hit the computer (well mandy did anyway) She sorted out so much stuff on here i would never of had a clue how to do it me self ~as for trying to find stuff now maybe a different matter but i think i have cracked it lol) But Mandy thankyou so much for all your help and for me tag that i collected my from cherry2sweet2eat~ I only found out about it as i browsed her journal and thought i like the look of that so i put in me order and then an email came through saying you had already ordered one for me (lovely jubbly i thought and it was ready for collection. That was another story trying to save the picture but as you can see cracked that too! HEY NOT BAD AYE BIRD!!! ill never be a computer whizz like you though lol.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>Well as you all can see ive changed me border as i thought i needed to add some more pics of my other boys (the crazy two) bless their hearts and the eldest one in the picture asked me to put this one in, so michael ill show you in the morning of tomorrow and see iff i get a good response out of him and ill let you all know!!! However Samuel my 3 yr old will think its great anyway as it has his picture on here lol.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>So to all in J~Land thanks for all your comments and ill get round to browsing all your journals as soon as i can and ill leave you all a comment!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>And Mandy just one more thing do you like your dancing flower on my border?!!! oh good as this is the one i pinched off here and was on here all last week without you even realising and GUESS WHAT ? its still here lol and is staying for a while if you dont mind . Lots of love and Hugs to all and have a good week xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>And finally Last of all this is for cherry! this young lady is the one who made my picture at the top and i think its lovely and if you go to my side bar her link is there for anyonewhowould loveto view her pics.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#40800e> ~chocolate cherried creations2sweet2eat by Diama~</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>GOODNIGHT ALL AND ILL BE BACK SOON</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5> ~YOUR ALL SPECIAL ~</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5> ~People~</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5> XX</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>HERE IS MY APPOLOGY TO CHERRY!! </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>When i edited her picture here i made a mis~hap some how as to the size it came out so please except my appologies and now i have mandys expertes with computers i will not edit pictures if i think they have not came out the right size (ill check with me sis mandy first) SO SORRY FOR THE BOO BOO!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400080 size=5>blimey did i feel a right wally! lol xxxxxxxxxxxxxx</FONT></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-18247724217799499362006-10-19T08:42:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.364-07:00WHEN WILL MY DOOM BE GLOOM!!<P> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?start=all#imgAnch37"> </A> <FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#400040 size=5><STRONG><EM><IMG class=pic height=337 alt=Copyofhaunted1.gif src="http://i90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Copyofhaunted1.gif" width=415> </EM></STRONG></FONT></P>
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<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#400040 size=5><STRONG><EM>ANOTHER DAY!!!</EM></STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#400040 size=5><STRONG><EM>Im bored im fed up and really peed off!</EM></STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#400040 size=5><STRONG><EM>I had my 2 hours to myself today and i did go and visit laila, this however felt oh so strange !! Nothing to see or hold other than the flowers on her grave! They still look good even after a week! I nearly took off the tags and bows and the labels with her name on as i wanted to bring them home. But i didnt i left them as the time did'nt feel right. I could'nt measure me daisy chain around her grave as the wind was really blowing and i did'nt want to loose any of the daisies off it as it is artificial! So i just stayed a short while and just looked and looked and looked and then i just walked away, something stopped me inside so i walked back and looked again and then i felt the urge i needed to speak to her (i know she cant hear but just incase i had to say goodbye and that i would be back very soon to visit her! And then i walked back to the car ! My chest ached so much, all i wanted to do was bring her home but i know that this pain will never go yet as it is not ready to and it wouldnt of been practical or logical if i had just got her out of there either! Then i left! At least i got my time to go and visit her which is what i have wanted to do for days but was unable to!</EM></STRONG></FONT></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#400040 size=5>The rest of my day Entailed cooking for the five thousand at lunch time (Bacon Sandwhiches)as ou friend was doing our plastering again (thank god) I cant wait to start decorating we have lived here in our home for 7 and half years and the decorating has never really been done but now im doing it as enough is enough and i want us to have a nice christmas with the living room looking how it should! (im nagging and i know and i dont really care as it has to be said)!!!</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#400040 size=5>So My fireplace is done Hooray!!!! now its the Walls then the painting and the cieling and then bobs your uncle it will be done (i hope i have the energy for this but im going to do my best)</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
<P><STRONG><EM><FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#400040 size=5>The children have broke up for their half term for halloween! (oh no cant stand it already fighting the bickering and thats mine malarky) LOL they will keep me busy though Bless them</FONT></EM></STRONG></P>
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<P><FONT color=#400040>OH WELL its time i was off dinner to cook and have to be out later as the boys have parents evenning at the school!!! BRACE ME SELF !!! lol their good kids really . maybe be back later but bye for now !!! lots of hugs to you all in J-Land XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#400040>KERRYANNE XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX</FONT> <FONT face="Arial Narrow" color=#400040 size=5><STRONG><EM> </EM></STRONG></FONT></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-21089446455663932602006-10-18T11:27:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.365-07:00ITS BEEN A HARD DAY<P><FONT color=#808080><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=baby20angel203.jpg&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch81"><IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 145px; HEIGHT: 178px" height=160 alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_baby20angel203.jpg" width=184></A></FONT><FONT color=#808080> * WHAT A DAY TODAY HAS BEEN*</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>I Have had my husbands friend round this morning (that sounds naughty lol) He is a plasterer! We need our walls skimmed and our fire place and floor done, so it was a busy morning. Oh and my son Georgie was off today from school as he still has his cold! We got our floor done and he will be back tomorrow to do the walls!!! Im definitely going out while this is being done!!! So georgie will be going to school! And then i can have 2 hours to myself till my son Samuel has to be picked up from play-school. SO IM OFF TO LAILAS GRAVE (HOORAY)!!! IM SO ESTACTIC JUST TO HAVE 2 HOURS TO MESELF AND IM MAKING THE MOST OF IT AS THE BOYS BREAK UP FROM SCHOOL,! TOMMOROW IS THEIR LAST DAY AND THEIR OFF FOR 10 DAYS (OH NO)!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=divheartblinksbestMA12972415-0037.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch10"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_divheartblinksbestMA12972415-0037.gif"></A> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=divheartblinksbestMA12972415-0037.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch10"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_divheartblinksbestMA12972415-0037.gif"></A></FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#808080>This Afternoon I had a telephone call from the Hospital i was under while still pregnant with Laila!!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>They had taken Blood from me the last day i was there, to test me to see if im a D.N.A. carrier for mytonic dystrophy and myasthenia Gravis these are muscle conditions that can be passed on to your unborn children (only if you are a Carrier) Well they gave me the results of the Mytonic Dystrophy as this was the only test that is back so far and it is NEGATIVE which i am really relieved about as i wouldnt like to think that my daughter suffered because of me and my D>N>A> However these tests they have done, they did'nt seem to think i would have these conditions as my 4 other children are fine all been healthy!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>So now All i have to do is sit tight to wait for the Next result to come in and no matter how re-assured i am about the first result the second one i am worried about the same as when i was waiting for the first one!!! But hey its Good News about this one THANK-GOD.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>Obviously if i had of been a carrier to either it would affect any subsequent Pregnancys for the future if i was to carry on having any more! WHO KNOWS !!! I dont like to think i wouldnt be able to have anymore children, im the type of person that its my choice (but when its out of my hands i have to obey the RULES LOL)</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>At Kings they told me that my Daughters Condition that she had Normally Affects 1 in 5,000 Babies and unfortunately she had to be the one who got it, It saddens me enough to think what she had was extremely unfair But to think that i could of passed on a condition that i was not aware of !!! I dont think i could ever forgive myself!!! But we will wait and see for the Next Result!!! Wish me luck and if there is a God out there then Please Please be on my side for a change!!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>Other than that i mentioned briefly about a crushing feeling across my chest that i have been getting since the loss of Laila, (it felt like a Dull Compression or even strong Indigestion i thought) So this evenning i took myself off to the Doctors and he asked me to fill in a bereavement Questionnaire!!! They were all questions on how iwas coping on a day to day basis and next to the questions were numbers at the end the doctor added up my score and it said for my score i was severly Depressed !! This is what the Crushing pain is Anxiety Anxiousness etc. He then offered me Anti Depressants which i refused because to me i have never taken tablets for the slightest thing Let alone for Depression that is to do with my Grieving (so i told him no thankyou) and that i would get through this my own way!!! I hope i made the right decision (i think so).</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>Other than this My husband keeps trying to get on the computer and unfortunately it has been taken up by me lol!!! Cause im determined to learn all about this adding my photos to my journal and so far so good im coping lol!!! WITH THE BIG THANKS TO MY BEST SISTER IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD MY MANDY!!!! (of course im not grovelling ) lol.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>And mandy if your reading my journal is better cause i have not written about Mountain Edna and the Laptop With Frost bite fingers (sorry she will know what im talking about and im sure she will share with you) LOL HOW MANY BROWNIE POINTS DO I </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>HAVE NOW lol...<A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=loveheart5gl.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch35"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_loveheart5gl.gif"></A>. MY SISTER <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=loveheart5gl.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch35"><IMG class=thumbnailover alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_loveheart5gl.gif"></A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080> IS THE</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080> BEST</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080> <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?action=view&current=loveheart5gl.gif&refPage=all&imgAnch=imgAnch35"><IMG class=thumbnailover style="WIDTH: 122px; HEIGHT: 114px" height=110 alt="" src="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/th_loveheart5gl.gif" width=118></A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080> AND MY BEST </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080> FRIEND </FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080> EVER</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080> X</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#808080>SO TO ALL YOU LOVELY OUT THERE GOODNIGHT AND HAVE A GOOD DAY TOMMOROW XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX</FONT></P>
<P>the lovely heart and love pic</P>
<P>is by gillmarie</P>
<P>at coulouring inside the lines.</P>
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<P> Bye for now xxx KERRYANNE xxx </P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-62824511806353696802006-10-17T13:29:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.365-07:00MY DAY<P><EM><FONT color=#008040 size=5>Hello Everyone!!!</FONT></EM></P>
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<P><EM><FONT color=#008040 size=5>Today has been a strange day!!! Well i suppose every day has been since i came home from hospital.</FONT></EM></P>
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<P><FONT color=#8000ff>My Son Georgie has been home again (no school) as he is poorly with a cold and temprature and sore throat!!! So any plans i have, are on hold till he is well enough!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff>I had wanted to visit Laila but havent since Saturday this makes me feel really cross and anxious with myself! But if i drag georgie out that is not fair if he feels unwell, so ill have to stay cross till i go! I wanted to check her flowers and take the daisy chain i bought up to her grave as i feel this would be nice for her to have laying around her plot until the ground settles! So ill have to see what tomorrow brings!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff>Its a strange thing grieving one day to the next is so different! And im now finding it hard trying to be strong for all my family (even though im not letting on to them) I keep finding things todo so that i can keep my mind busy and doing the normal things we all have to do on a daily basis pay bills and answer the phone (this is hard as people ask oh how are you and i say yeh not bad ) But i dont want to have to talk to them about it!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff>I have even found that all the things i recieved from the hospital for laila all her bits that i took into hospital for me are still in the bag !!! All the lovely pictures that my brother took and mandy and my own pictures i dont even want to look at them or go through her stuff, All the sympathy cards i got they never even had a place in my house as they just all got put in her bag , ive left all my stuff at the other end of the living room ( Am i just trying<A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?start=#imgAnch16"></A> to ignore all this i dont know) But the only thing i found was listenning to the c.d i made with beautiful tracks on i listenned to that this afternoon and i found my self breaking and then holding it back because of my boys, i didnt want them to see me upset!!! I have had a constant ache across my chest since i came home without Laila and it eased off for a couple of days and nows it back!!! Is all this normal i dont know!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff>Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day !! <A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?start=#imgAnch16"><IMG class=pic style="WIDTH: 139px; HEIGHT: 126px" height=120 alt=images1.jpg src="http://i90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/images1.jpg" width=120></A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff>I have overloaded my head with all sorts Halloween then its my sister Mandys birthday and then my son Georgies Birthday and then there is Fireworks Night and then Christmas and i seem to of scrambled it all into my head at once !!! Why!!!?</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff>Told you i had a strange day !!! I think maybe a Goodnights sleep will do me some good i hope******</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff>Well its a short one tonight so ill say Goodnight and Godbless and thankyou to those who took the time to leave comments, They are much appreciated! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT color=#8000ff>KERRYANNE</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff><A href="http://s90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/?"><IMG class=pic style="WIDTH: 423px; HEIGHT: 349px" height=337 alt=Copyofhaunted1.gif src="http://i90.photobucket.com/albums/k265/Kerryanne73/Copyofhaunted1.gif" width=415></A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff>Thanks to chris at cab creations for this tag</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#8000ff></FONT> </P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-68047926047862438512006-10-16T15:38:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.365-07:00AS HALLOWEEN APROACHES<P><EM><FONT color=#0000ff size=4>Hi everyone,</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#0000ff size=4>Here i go again trying to add an entry to my journal and its been crazy! This is my 3rd attempt tonight and if this one doesnt work then i will screem!!!!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#0000ff size=4>Well as i tried to tell you 3 times earlier My Family and i lit a candle to remember all the babies! My Children Enjoyed Remembering Laila as their star in the sky!!! This was very moving watching them as they thought of her and the other babies and infants that dont get to stay here with us!! Bless their little Hearts and the prayers that they had written for Laila was sweet too!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#0000ff size=4>She will always be our remebered Angel in our hearts!!!!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><FONT color=#0000ff>Well now to talk about my Boys! Georgie Michael and Samuel, they are ESTATIC that halloween is Coming and they cant wait to dress up! My mind has been boggled with their ideas that they have!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#0000ff>And here we go again they would like a Party as we always celebrate Halloween and have many parties over the Years!! One year we had 18 children and 7 parents come and we had our party and then the whole lot of us trick and treated the streets they thought it was great However we were all some what KNACKERED by the end of it!!So this Year i think it will have to be just dressing up the house and doing the pumpkin and maybe a friend each as i don't think i have the energy for anything else! But i will do my best and make it as special as i can and still take them trick and treating********</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#0000ff>This yeat we are going to have Mortisha (me) with Samuel my 3 yr old as a skeleton!!! That outfit is sorted and then Michael my 6yr old as Count dracula and then Georgie as Half frankinstien and Half harry potter this i have got to see!!! Where he got this idea from is beyond me lol!!! But im sure ill be up to my eyeballs in face painting but they will love it im sure.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#0000ff>So i suppose i best get making and preparing for their day otherwise i will be in the dog house somewhat with them all!!lol</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#0000ff>Today i spent time looking at other peoples journals and snagging pictures i hope i did it right and havent stepped on anyones toes, but if i know me i have probably made some hiccups no doubt! So if i have then im deeplysorry But im new to all this and am still learning!!! (where are you mandy when i need ya lol)</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#0000ff>Thankyou for my comments to all and especially to my sister mandy (millie) for your comment about my poem im glad you liked it and to my neice hayley for her comment to Bless ya!!! What a Family i have im so Lucky for their love and support and encouragement that they show me!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#0000ff>Tomorrow is a day when i visit my daughter Laila as i have bought a Daisy Chain to lay over grave So ill be measuring up to make sure it fits ( i hope it will look ok) and then im out shopping for my Eldest son Dean as it is his Girlfriends Birthday!!! So my time wont be my own as usual!!!! Oh and i must forget i have to take a Halloween cup for my son michael as he wasnt impressed with the one i bought him, he prefers his brother georgies one so that is a must (cant have him upset ) he is very sure as to how he lets you know his feelings!!! (love him he is a bit tempremental ) im sure it will pass in time!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#0000ff>Well you lovely people off i go need me sleep!!! And a cuppa!!! Have a good day!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#0000ff>Hugs and godbless!!!</FONT></P>
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<P><FONT size=6><FONT color=#0000ff>Kerryanne</FONT> </FONT></P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-70217194706166410382006-10-15T14:44:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.366-07:00Our remebered little Angels<P><FONT color=#ff00ff size=6><EM>Welcome Back to my journal!</EM></FONT></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>I would like to say thanks to all that have had a read and left comments for me! Its great reading your comments especially the one from cherry!! lol this one was funny as it related to my son Michael Burying his moth bless him!!!!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>My children and i lit a Candle tonight and so did some of my friends and family for the remeberence of the infant losses!!! I hope you all remebered!! Anyhow my children and i kept the candles burning for one whole hour like it said to do!! My youngest Samuel he is 3 and a half got stuck into the lighting of the candles and sat on the sofa and said to his dad! shush my sister is coming now she is up in the sky with the stars and is coming to see him! How Sweet was this it gave my husband and i a lump in our throats as it was such innocence from such a small child (our child)</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>So here is my poem and i hope you like it!!</FONT></EM></P>
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<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5> OUR ANGEL LAILA</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>Small and petite, from head to feet.</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>Why did everything have to be so bleak?</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>A tiny life that sruggled to survive,</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>why could'nt my Laila be alive?</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>So sadly missed as she rests in peace,</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>My little girl who deeply sleeps!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>Cherished by us who love her the most!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>Did the angels take her? or could she be lost?</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>Far up amongst the skies thats where Laila is </FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>Surrounded by the stars.</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>The lights that lead to Eternal Peace</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>Godbless my sweet</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>Be forever in Peace.</FONT></EM></P>
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<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=2>By kerryanne!!!!</FONT></EM></P>
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<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=2>How hard it seems when you've had such a loss. The grieving is hard ! But i have found it in my heart that the best thing for me is having my other children around me and when there all asleep and i go to bed i right every night of all that i feel about my darling precious daughter! I put down on paper then when i think its appropiate i share it with all you lovely people from j-land!!! Thankyou for all your support .</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=2>And to all you parents out there Godbless you all ! Be strong !!!</FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=4>Goodnight J-Land </FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=4>Godbless you all and Sweet Dreams and the same to my friend and Family!!! Thanks your all Great!!!!!</FONT></EM></P>
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<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>Anyway i would like to leave a poem that i have written myself this evenning!!! </FONT></EM></P>
<P><EM><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5></FONT></EM> </P>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7766357270971075165.post-53693876605631210782006-10-15T03:30:00.000-07:002008-10-21T15:24:26.366-07:00A Hectic Weekend !<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><A><IMG class=ygpImageBorder height=96 src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhi1Fdosf5OYlzr6_dAGoMkHXQtMXw0Jiu-ug1QDOiJpjgqg4gFaPNv2kWgI9BGgSovpthi-nxT0_pI7NQYv0OyHZHJIsI0KQ1qZUvN9CSFLwvhW9iA4XvkEfR66Pl3Yv8JXovd_4IXBfM/s1600-r/s6CwF+I5KPMF5UHPjWYhoyXWIXx7725G00A0.jpg" width=160></A></DIV>
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<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT color=#ff80c0 size=5>Hi Everyone! Hope you in all in j-land have had a Lovely Weekend!!!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT color=#ff80c0 size=5>Thankyou to all that replied to my journal on Friday, Your comments were a delight to read! Thankyou showing how much you care!!! I will certainly enjoy coming and sharing my journal with you all ! You must be very special people for all the caring support you give!</FONT></DIV>
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<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>Well its been a Hectic weekend ! Friday i had all the usual chores to do as well as pick up the kids from school, and my niece too (Hayley) as she was coming to Babysit so i could go and watch a band with my husband mick on saturday! (we had to do something Normal for ourselves) </FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>Also my sons georgie and michael had their school Disco so that was alot of running around too!! So i did not go to Lailas grave as i did not get time!! This made me feel very angry as id missed a day also the sadness of her on her own with no visitors. (I know this is probably silly but i felt that i had let her down !!! maybe in time i wont feel so guilty for not being able to visit her on days when i am busy, but as it is still very raw </FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>these feelings i hope are normal!!</FONT></DIV>
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<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>But Saturday came and i hushered the kids around and got them ready and we left to visit Laila., It was as though id let out a sigh of relief once we arrived as i stood at her grave . </FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>Being there next to her is a peaceful feeling that i get. I suppose its because i feel that that is what i should be doing!! Visiting my daughter Alive or dead!! (This is my maternal instinct feelings i expect)</FONT></DIV>
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<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>Right im waffling lol!!! The Kids came with me and Hayley and we walked around the other graves till we reached my friends little one. We payed our respects then left!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>On our way back to the car Michael my 6 Year old decided to show some Elder men (his moth that he had brought with him (as it had died too) </FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>He buried it near a tree! And then we headed for the car!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>It had been chaos with the kids there as Samuel runs about and michael was doing his thing! And georgie was complainning of all the walking around we were doing as his Leg was aching!!!!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>My niece hayley and i admired the way some people had made there childrens spots so pretty and of course some of the Head-stones were beautiful!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#008040 size=5>Getting back to the car was a relief !!! Normally i would go to the grave on me own ( no kids) so its peaceful, But when the kids come its like a Whirlwind has just turned up lol!!! </FONT></DIV>
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<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#ff00ff size=5>From the cemetary we drove to my mums house (she is in the process of trying to move house so things are chaos with her too)</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#ff00ff size=5>Its a long story but me and my mum fell out 12 years ago and then we tried to pick things up again which only lasted for 6 months sadly!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#ff00ff size=5>But when i had Laila i said to Mandy me sis i wish i could tell my mum give her a ring to let her know she had a grand-daughter . Then we i came home from the hospital on the sunday i said exactly the same thing to my hubby Mick and left it at that (id expressed my feelings but my stubborness was to stay and it wasnt shifting) So on the monday i had visited Laila at the hospital and when i arrived home i had a Telephone call!!! Oh my it was my mum on the other end, She asked lots of questions and shed her tears and since then she has been around to see all the children and came to the funeral and she has showed her support and that she does care!! Its nice but having nothing for 12 years and then all of a sudden i have a mum in my life thats being very mummying to me and i am unsure how to handle it but at the same time im not knocking her for it either!! Its been nice talking to her and going round for tea! And i hope we can hang on to it this time!!!!!</FONT></DIV>
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<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#ff00ff size=5>So Loosing Laila was the Hardest thing in my life that i ever had to do Without being reconciled with my mother that was a whole lot more of Emotions and Tears that i have shed!!! But i suppose no matter how hard loosing Laila Maybe something Good has come out of it (that sounds awful) But its strange when something like this happens all the people that you wouldnt normally see seem to come out of the woodwork!!!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#ff00ff size=5>Lets Hope its good and to stay! </FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#ff00ff size=5>Sorry while i was waffling rememeber had said who had let my mum know what had happened with the Baby etc.!!! It was my hubby he telephoned my mum and told her of our loss and that was how it came about to her contacting me!!!! Thank you Mick!!! i will always remember this. You must of had some courage approaching my mum lol!!!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#ff00ff size=5>So things have been fine with her anyway!!!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#ff00ff size=5>We had tea at my mums then Headed for the town!!! My phone bill had to be payed! We hit some shops 4 exactly! The kids got their things for Halloween cause we love to celebrate this every year!!! So we decorate the inside of the house with lots of home-made decorations and then the children go trick-treating! We have had parties on occasions but this year ill see what ever im capable of doing!! But im sure theyll have fun whatever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</FONT></DIV>
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<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>We did some shopping and then headed for home!!! I was feeling tired and my tummy was hurting too!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>We had to make one more stop before getting home as i needed to go into the florist shop as i have ordered a Daisy chain to rest around laila until she has her head-stone and edging! Once i left the shop i felt quite unwell so we hurried home!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>Finally we were home and things werent so good so i needed to go to hospital to be reviewed they said i was fine just needed to rest up a bit !! I know this already but its hard when you have a big family!!!!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>I Still went out and watched the Band that we wanted to see!!But sat in a chair all night! So i was still resting so to speak !!!</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT color=#0080cd size=5>But we had a reasonable evenning it was strange going out after all that has happenned ! Maybe a bit too soon but i did it! lol</FONT></DIV>
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<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT size=5><FONT color=#0080cd>Right i will love and leave you all till later and Please please Remember the Pregnancy and Infant loss remeberence day October 15th</FONT><FONT color=#ff00ff>. Please Light a Candle at 7pm for one hour this evening so there will be a continuous wave of light over the entire world! Please Please Remember !!!!</FONT></FONT></DIV>
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<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>~*Kerryanne*~</FONT></DIV>
<DIV class=ygpPictureLink><FONT color=#ff00ff size=5>xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx</FONT></DIV>kerryannehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12806687590821225275noreply@blogger.com8